these immoral moments...
so i was looking through some stuff searching for my painting shit and i came across this poem if you will, from long ago and far away...
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if i could do anything
i dunno 'bout tomorrow
i dunno about an hour from now
but right now i want to turn to you
kiss your lips
take your hand
lead you to my room
strip you down to your skin
stare at your nakedness
in all your glory
i would hold you in my grasp
ravish the body i once lusted after
make you wish you had never hurt me
i'd wake in the morning
watch you rest
kiss your forehead
stroke your hair
good morning my sweet
now take your shit
and get the fuck out
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today is my birthday. i've received a few calls but it's slipped the mind of most. that's ok tho, i always am forgetting birthdays... my sister and jenn haven't called yet... FOR SHAME!!! hahaha...
tonight we are going to a club for 80's night. never been to this particular place yet but i hope it's fun... i've been sitting around all day which is usual for my birthday, called a few to invite them out tonight... most are busy or working... bah! it's all about me and my beer tonight.
i haven't been alone much lately which is why i never update this fucking thing... let's see about updates... i quit my lame ass job cuz i hated it and as julia said i didn't come out here to be unhappy, so... yeah. i have a few dollars coming from my 401K, which i will live off til i can find something else. i intend on paying off my car as well, catching up on past due bills so i can breathe easy for a bit.
i am going home to visit on the 17th, which P reminded me is VIBRATOR night... haha, i told her there'd be other sluts to dance with so not to miss me much. i'll be gone for about 3 weeks... a week on vacation with jenn and then 2 weeks to kick it with mom and family... friends... mel and i are going to go eat chowder hopefully with her GF and amber, whom i never talk to anymore...
god damn.
so P. yeah. we've been talking a lot lately. she's coming tonight and tomorrow we are going to a bon fire on this beach a few people told me i should visit since it's so beautiful. i dunno how i feel about things with her anymore. i just know that things happen for a reason, and i like her still. maybe i'm a fool... ok, i'm a fool, but i intend on keeping my heart at bay for the time being...
another interest may come tonight which will be cool since i've failed to call her back last week. only cuz i am poor and really can't do much with no money. plus she mentioned drinks, which would be totally cool, but yeah, there's that money thing...
there's one more interest, but well... things happen for a reason and it hasn't yet. i'll leave it at that.
i am still extremely happy and so glad to be under the seattle skylight. the city is beautiful from across the sound and i went to alki and oh my fucking christ, it's a dream world.
homo a go go this weekend, team dresch... yeah guys, HAVE FUN!!! i wish.
hugs and kisses and love love love.
<3<3<3
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if i could do anything
i dunno 'bout tomorrow
i dunno about an hour from now
but right now i want to turn to you
kiss your lips
take your hand
lead you to my room
strip you down to your skin
stare at your nakedness
in all your glory
i would hold you in my grasp
ravish the body i once lusted after
make you wish you had never hurt me
i'd wake in the morning
watch you rest
kiss your forehead
stroke your hair
good morning my sweet
now take your shit
and get the fuck out
::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
today is my birthday. i've received a few calls but it's slipped the mind of most. that's ok tho, i always am forgetting birthdays... my sister and jenn haven't called yet... FOR SHAME!!! hahaha...
tonight we are going to a club for 80's night. never been to this particular place yet but i hope it's fun... i've been sitting around all day which is usual for my birthday, called a few to invite them out tonight... most are busy or working... bah! it's all about me and my beer tonight.
i haven't been alone much lately which is why i never update this fucking thing... let's see about updates... i quit my lame ass job cuz i hated it and as julia said i didn't come out here to be unhappy, so... yeah. i have a few dollars coming from my 401K, which i will live off til i can find something else. i intend on paying off my car as well, catching up on past due bills so i can breathe easy for a bit.
i am going home to visit on the 17th, which P reminded me is VIBRATOR night... haha, i told her there'd be other sluts to dance with so not to miss me much. i'll be gone for about 3 weeks... a week on vacation with jenn and then 2 weeks to kick it with mom and family... friends... mel and i are going to go eat chowder hopefully with her GF and amber, whom i never talk to anymore...
god damn.
so P. yeah. we've been talking a lot lately. she's coming tonight and tomorrow we are going to a bon fire on this beach a few people told me i should visit since it's so beautiful. i dunno how i feel about things with her anymore. i just know that things happen for a reason, and i like her still. maybe i'm a fool... ok, i'm a fool, but i intend on keeping my heart at bay for the time being...
another interest may come tonight which will be cool since i've failed to call her back last week. only cuz i am poor and really can't do much with no money. plus she mentioned drinks, which would be totally cool, but yeah, there's that money thing...
there's one more interest, but well... things happen for a reason and it hasn't yet. i'll leave it at that.
i am still extremely happy and so glad to be under the seattle skylight. the city is beautiful from across the sound and i went to alki and oh my fucking christ, it's a dream world.
homo a go go this weekend, team dresch... yeah guys, HAVE FUN!!! i wish.
hugs and kisses and love love love.
<3<3<3