work is sloooooow...
i'm bored as fuck... and i just don't feel like talking much. i ate pancakes for breakfast and my tummy hurts. they feel like they're stuck in my throat... i can't breathe.
mass. began handing out marriage licenses today for same sex couples. this excites me so and makes me wanna high five the kids out there. oh yay! a photo of a couple in the paper brought tears to my eyes... and i envy those who have found their "forever". too often we search without enjoying life... i remember saying a while back, "i'm so glad marriage isn't legal for homos, cuz i would have already been divorced 2 times." we can up that count to 3 since i've made that statement... i like to think i'm a bit smarter now, hehe, yeah... so MUCH smarter. lmao. i'm a soul with a stoney little heart...
can't wait to get to florida... i ended up not going to my sister's party. i've been wanting to be around my mom, which really sucked this weekend cuz... she was depressed and bitchy. sat night was fine. we stayed up and watched mad tv... she cried when i mentioned something about leaving... god damn, she almost had me going but i fought off the tears. they will come eventually and they won't stop soon after... i'd like for her or anyone else here not to see that. lilly will have her hands full on the drive up. sunday morning mom suggests breakfast so we get ready and go. her depressed mood has moved to bitterness, while waiting for a table a rude comment pissed me off. i swallowed my pride and got over it only for her to make another comment over breakfast. i really tried again, but it hurt... just seeing her that way and knowing it's my fault cuz i'm leaving. they say it's easier to end things on an angry note, but that's not the way i want it and regardless of how distant and cold my mother acts i know that's not how she wants it either.
when we got home i called my sister, who's roomate picked up and i went down to visit my kitties. god damn i miss them sooooo much, i can't even describe what it's like... they're cats, but they are my babies... i can't wait to share a beautiful place like seattle with them. we will sit in the yard and play chase... they will have friends and be able to roam free. i hope frankie adjusts ok, he's so much like me. i stayed at my sister's til 6 and then came home. mom and robert were arguing so i went and hid in my room. i smoked a bowl and played with jeza, made a couple of phone calls... talked to miss p finally... ooh sexy voice. hahahaha. she is making a video for her friend's b-day. sounds like fun, yiiiiip.
ahh seattle.
ahh dyke friends.
ahh me!
mass. began handing out marriage licenses today for same sex couples. this excites me so and makes me wanna high five the kids out there. oh yay! a photo of a couple in the paper brought tears to my eyes... and i envy those who have found their "forever". too often we search without enjoying life... i remember saying a while back, "i'm so glad marriage isn't legal for homos, cuz i would have already been divorced 2 times." we can up that count to 3 since i've made that statement... i like to think i'm a bit smarter now, hehe, yeah... so MUCH smarter. lmao. i'm a soul with a stoney little heart...
can't wait to get to florida... i ended up not going to my sister's party. i've been wanting to be around my mom, which really sucked this weekend cuz... she was depressed and bitchy. sat night was fine. we stayed up and watched mad tv... she cried when i mentioned something about leaving... god damn, she almost had me going but i fought off the tears. they will come eventually and they won't stop soon after... i'd like for her or anyone else here not to see that. lilly will have her hands full on the drive up. sunday morning mom suggests breakfast so we get ready and go. her depressed mood has moved to bitterness, while waiting for a table a rude comment pissed me off. i swallowed my pride and got over it only for her to make another comment over breakfast. i really tried again, but it hurt... just seeing her that way and knowing it's my fault cuz i'm leaving. they say it's easier to end things on an angry note, but that's not the way i want it and regardless of how distant and cold my mother acts i know that's not how she wants it either.
when we got home i called my sister, who's roomate picked up and i went down to visit my kitties. god damn i miss them sooooo much, i can't even describe what it's like... they're cats, but they are my babies... i can't wait to share a beautiful place like seattle with them. we will sit in the yard and play chase... they will have friends and be able to roam free. i hope frankie adjusts ok, he's so much like me. i stayed at my sister's til 6 and then came home. mom and robert were arguing so i went and hid in my room. i smoked a bowl and played with jeza, made a couple of phone calls... talked to miss p finally... ooh sexy voice. hahahaha. she is making a video for her friend's b-day. sounds like fun, yiiiiip.
ahh seattle.
ahh dyke friends.
ahh me!