im crazy...i should go to the crazy house
happy monday buddies!
Today was alright i guess except for all the heat. it was freakin hot.
I ran a mile in athletics today it took me umm about 6 minutes to do it so thats good.
I had this arguement with myself today in science. We were watching a movie and i was talking to myslef in my head and here's how it went (i have a bit of a split personality...so shy me will be 1 and not shy me will be 2....i swear im fucking mental)
1:it really bugs me that he wont ask me out i bet he doesnt even like me.
2:He likes you he's just shy
1:yea well he needs to be unshy
2:So do you...ask him out or something what do you have to lose?
1:everything
2:no you dont just do it
1:no i cant things will get weird between us
2:its already weird between you guys and it seems fine
1:well still i cant
2: JUST DO IT YOU HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE YOU KNOW HE FUCKING LIKES YOU!!
1:I HAVE EVERYTHING TO LOSE! HE IS LIKE MY BEST FRIEND AND I AM NOT GOING TO DO IT!!
2:WHY NOT??!
1: I AM NOT GONNA LAY MY HEART OUT ON THE LINE JUST TO HAVE IT BROKEN BY SOME GUY I LIKE OK IS THAT GOOD ENOUGH?
2:no.
1: you dont understand......
Yea so it went on for a while then the bell ran and i got to go to math
In math i would be sitting there and Doug would be like im gonna poke you and he would :) then a little bit after that he goes ok im gonna stare at you now and he would for a really long time which made me laugh. He did the staring thing a couple of times today.....*giggles*
After health i was going to my locker and i saw melissa and she mouthed: he's behind you!! And i was like *nod* and i kept walking...WHY THE FUCK DID I NOT TURN AROUND AND SAY SOMETHING TO HIM??!! ermm i hate it when i freeze up like that. Oh well um after school she told me that he was staring at me the entire time i was in front of him so thats cool.
Today was alright i guess except for all the heat. it was freakin hot.
I ran a mile in athletics today it took me umm about 6 minutes to do it so thats good.
I had this arguement with myself today in science. We were watching a movie and i was talking to myslef in my head and here's how it went (i have a bit of a split personality...so shy me will be 1 and not shy me will be 2....i swear im fucking mental)
1:it really bugs me that he wont ask me out i bet he doesnt even like me.
2:He likes you he's just shy
1:yea well he needs to be unshy
2:So do you...ask him out or something what do you have to lose?
1:everything
2:no you dont just do it
1:no i cant things will get weird between us
2:its already weird between you guys and it seems fine
1:well still i cant
2: JUST DO IT YOU HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE YOU KNOW HE FUCKING LIKES YOU!!
1:I HAVE EVERYTHING TO LOSE! HE IS LIKE MY BEST FRIEND AND I AM NOT GOING TO DO IT!!
2:WHY NOT??!
1: I AM NOT GONNA LAY MY HEART OUT ON THE LINE JUST TO HAVE IT BROKEN BY SOME GUY I LIKE OK IS THAT GOOD ENOUGH?
2:no.
1: you dont understand......
Yea so it went on for a while then the bell ran and i got to go to math
In math i would be sitting there and Doug would be like im gonna poke you and he would :) then a little bit after that he goes ok im gonna stare at you now and he would for a really long time which made me laugh. He did the staring thing a couple of times today.....*giggles*
After health i was going to my locker and i saw melissa and she mouthed: he's behind you!! And i was like *nod* and i kept walking...WHY THE FUCK DID I NOT TURN AROUND AND SAY SOMETHING TO HIM??!! ermm i hate it when i freeze up like that. Oh well um after school she told me that he was staring at me the entire time i was in front of him so thats cool.