Defeated
I'm completely helpless right now. There is literally nothing I can do. Despite all my talk, I'm not a confrontational person when it comes to perceived "authority" or "paternal" figures. Basically, if someone knows more than me, I do what I can to tremble and obey rather than stand up for myself. I'm just so afraid of what's going to happen and there's nothing I can do about it. I'm at my lowest point. I feel so defeated.
I don't know how many more times I can "cry out to God" from these depths. I started doing that long before this happened. I just keep doing it. He's the only one actually listens most of the time. We're all so busy and we've all got our own crap to handle. I understand that it's more than most people can do just to take time to hear your words. I need prayer. I just feel so useless. I don't know what to do. Just keep praying for me.
I don't know how many more times I can "cry out to God" from these depths. I started doing that long before this happened. I just keep doing it. He's the only one actually listens most of the time. We're all so busy and we've all got our own crap to handle. I understand that it's more than most people can do just to take time to hear your words. I need prayer. I just feel so useless. I don't know what to do. Just keep praying for me.