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Man... feel like cryin' or something. I dunno... this is the usual thing that follows me bein' pissed. What can I say, I have absolutely no control over my own emotions. Everytime I think I am starting to maintain control shit goes hay-wire and I end up even worse and in less control than before. I am not pissed or upset about it... I've just accepted it along with all the other patterns that seem to fuck with my life. Heh~ seems also as if all the people and things that used to make me happy are slowly evaporating... kinda' hard to hold on to. Yeah, things kinda' suck right now, but hopefully that is all just in my head. Hey, at least I have accepted them... kinda' the first step to recovery. I just wish I didn't feel like I wanted to die.