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So my entire life is in boxes and duffel bags. I live out of duffle bags. It looks like paying to move out of state is going to be impossible. Every damn thing I've looked at is over 1000 bucks. It's coming down to "do you really need all your things?" And what's the big deal it's just stuff, you can get new stuff." It boils down to I never get to have anything of my own. I always have to leave with nothing and start over from ground zero. I'm already giving up so very much. My car can't come my cats have to remain, my bed. Now it's my records and books and clothes, sewing machine and that shit too. It's too much. I'm already depressed. I slept for three days straight until I had to move to go to work. I feel very fucked. I'm trapped. I can't stay and I can't leave. Just absolutely fucked.