Shared property
So I began the process of division of mutual property. I couldn't finish. I freaked out. Got physically sick, and left early. My heart hurts. There are many whom were waiting in the wings for this to fail. I'm in no mood to entertain the idea of you because the idea of him is very fresh and raw. I'm going to be a frigid bitch for I'm unsure how long. Sex while I miss it I'm sure I couldn't preform in any satisfactory way that would be enjoyed by another person. I'm scared for my future, scared that I will never get another chance to have someone love me again. I'm scared I'll be to bitter and unwilling to try again and miss it completely. I'm scared that moving will not solve anything. That I'm leaving my supportive friends to live with equally supporting family but forgoing some personal freedoms for said support. I'm afraid I still will be too wild, weird,messy, and chaotic to live there. I'm afraid of yet again disappointing those I care about.