how can someone you give your heart to, just throw it back in your face
i want to go back to the philippines so bad. like i'm missing everything. my cousins, bestfriends, food, prices, malls, people, guys*. it's so hard to think that everyone you've known and cared about since you were little are growing up and you're missing it. even though you were close, you can't really be sure if you're still the same people. i don't think i'm the same anymore. i want to stay the same but i can't. it's not right anymore. i wish that i was as innocent now as i was back then. cause before i didn't know a lot, there weren't a lot of things for me to worry about. but now it's different. it's like the more i know, the harder it is. it's so much better to just know enough. i also remembered how i was happy of what i got now and then. but now it's like i want everything. i wasn't entirely happy if i didn't get all the things i want. i hate it. i want to go back home. i miss it so much. i really do. if i had to choose again if i can stay or go. i'd choose to stay without any second thoughts. i so would. i wouldn't trade my life back then for anything. because back then.. i had everything i would have ever wanted. i had a supporting family, great friends, content, happiness, & innocence.