Restless

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I feel so restless. I just want everything to be clear right now. I know it can't be and won't be, but I get myself so bogged down in it that it overwhelms me. I need to let go. I'm way too focused on myself.

Why is it so hard to accept things emotionally that I know intellectually?

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Because, said the Redhead:

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The emotional part of your brain is louder than the intellectual part. Imagine a classroom. Emotion shouts out all of the wrong answers and makes classmates laugh, but secretly pisses everyone off, and Reason quietly gets A's on all the tests and is made fun of for being nerdy.

Unfortunately, over-thinking things (especially with Emotion as your guide) never helps the situation. Searching out reasons for unease is also a bad idea. You gotta find something that takes you out of yourself, even only for a moment. Breaks from the brain are necessary to maintain sanity.

You can be hurt, and be mad. (Obviously, you don't need my permission, but this is what I mean by that:) You can feel what you feel, and don't have to apologize for it, and don't have to talk about it or think it over all the time to make it go away. If you feel bad, embrace it. Analyzing the situation when you are still smarting from the hurt doesn't give you an opportunity to be objective about reality. So, constantly thinking about something only serves to validate and continue your present feelings. Make sense? Or am I crazy?

I don’t know that anything is ever clear. We all try to make the best of the circumstances, and hope that the choices we make don’t come back to bite us in the ass. It seems pessimistic, but I don’t think it is. Once people recognize that everything is a choice, and I mean Emotionally recognize this, our paths don’t become more obvious, they’re just wider. With nifty little souvenir stores beside the road and handy maps for the trails off the beaten trek.

That’s what I think, anyway.