I love this. Very well thought it. I don't know about you but i realized that Dean wasn't in any of Sam's early normal memories because for one, Dean never wanted the same kind of normal Sam wanted and in fact sees it as a betrayal. Also, Sam was trying to get away from his father who he saw as controlling and the life of hunting. Because Dean chose the life of hunting and their father, he would be naturally absent in Sam's normal moments. Sam underneath all that "i'm a freak and don't deserve heaven" still craves normalcy. But Sam loves Dean with all his heart and Dean is still the most important person in his life.
I hope Sam can deal with his anger and make Dean see how important he is to him and finally get that chance to save his brother.
I don't know about you but i realized that Dean wasn't in any of Sam's early normal memories because for one, Dean never wanted the same kind of normal Sam wanted and in fact sees it as a betrayal. Also, Sam was trying to get away from his father who he saw as controlling and the life of hunting. Because Dean chose the life of hunting and their father, he would be naturally absent in Sam's normal moments.
I agree with you on most of this! Though I'm not so sure Dean chose hunting for himself either. He was raised into it and probably never even considered any other options. However, I might be wrong on that...I have a far easier time identifying with Sam, but Dean is often a mystery to me.
I hope Sam can deal with his anger and make Dean see how important he is to him and finally get that chance to save his brother. The ending of "Dark Side of the Moon" actually made me optimistic about this. It was depressing as hell of course, but it looked to me as though Sam realized he HAS to support Dean now more than ever. Knowing Sam, he'll
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I love the use of the Incredible Hulk TV should as your intro. David Banner is a tragic figure and so is Sam. Both the boys are, for different reasons. Sometimes, Sam's tragedy just seems to get passed over.
Sam spent most of his life having very little control over it.
Amen, and you detail each step of his efforts and their results perfectly.
The result of having no control over one's life and being aware of it is fear. When fear is too unbearable, sometimes it switches over into anger, which is more proactive and easier to bear. It's a relief from that crushing fear. It feels better than the fear. It's addictive.
Sam's anger stems from loss. Loss of innocence, loss of a normal life, loss of mother, father, brother and finally loss of self.
Very definitely.
When Sam confessed in Sam Interrupted that he was angry all the time, I was more than half expecting Dean to say, no wonder! you were fed demon blood as a baby, you never had a break - anyone would be angry! Unfortunately Dean was dealing with (
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The result of having no control over one's life and being aware of it is fear. When fear is too unbearable, sometimes it switches over into anger, which is more proactive and easier to bear. It's a relief from that crushing fear. It feels better than the fear. It's addictive.
Exactly! Fear hurts and weakens, but anger strengthens and feels like armor.
But I never understood why Sam's anger was considered so over the top - there was definitely provocation for it. Acknowledgment of that might have allowed him to accept how destructive it was and move on.I think this may be because Sam's anger will play a big role in the last few episodes of the season (this is pure speculation). If Sam resolves his anger issues it might hinder Lucifer's plans in some way. I also think that Sam can't talk through his anger issues with Dean because Dean doesn't want to have that conversation. As Dean said in "Sam, Interrupted," he wants to keep bottling his own emotions up, because it is the only way he knows how to cope -
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Excellent meta! I often have a hard time understanding where Sam's coming from, but this puts it all into perspective. His anger has been boiling at a simmer since S1, and it boiled over in S4. I like to think he's headed toward a redemption that will involve mastering those feelings and, even more, succeeding at something he tries to do. That repeated failure that you so perfectly sum up has to be emasculating and frustrating, so it's no wonder failure is linked with anger. Again, love this meta!
Thank you! I often have a hard time understanding where Sam's coming from I have this same issue with Dean! I think that's why I'm so hesitant to try to understand Dean's motivations. Sam on the other hand - I understand too well.
I like to think he's headed toward a redemption that will involve mastering those feelings and, even more, succeeding at something he tries to do. That would be amazing!
That repeated failure that you so perfectly sum up has to be emasculating and frustrating, so it's no wonder failure is linked with anger. Not only is it emasculating and frustrating but it also essentially invalidates Sam's choices. Every choice Sam made - no matter how questionable - was done with a goal in mind. Every time he fails, it proves that his choice was the wrong one. If even one of his choices ends up being right it would be a massive relief for him.
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I hope Sam can deal with his anger and make Dean see how important he is to him and finally get that chance to save his brother.
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I agree with you on most of this! Though I'm not so sure Dean chose hunting for himself either. He was raised into it and probably never even considered any other options. However, I might be wrong on that...I have a far easier time identifying with Sam, but Dean is often a mystery to me.
I hope Sam can deal with his anger and make Dean see how important he is to him and finally get that chance to save his brother. The ending of "Dark Side of the Moon" actually made me optimistic about this. It was depressing as hell of course, but it looked to me as though Sam realized he HAS to support Dean now more than ever. Knowing Sam, he'll ( ... )
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I love the use of the Incredible Hulk TV should as your intro. David Banner is a tragic figure and so is Sam. Both the boys are, for different reasons. Sometimes, Sam's tragedy just seems to get passed over.
Sam spent most of his life having very little control over it.
Amen, and you detail each step of his efforts and their results perfectly.
The result of having no control over one's life and being aware of it is fear. When fear is too unbearable, sometimes it switches over into anger, which is more proactive and easier to bear. It's a relief from that crushing fear. It feels better than the fear. It's addictive.
Sam's anger stems from loss. Loss of innocence, loss of a normal life, loss of mother, father, brother and finally loss of self.
Very definitely.
When Sam confessed in Sam Interrupted that he was angry all the time, I was more than half expecting Dean to say, no wonder! you were fed demon blood as a baby, you never had a break - anyone would be angry! Unfortunately Dean was dealing with ( ( ... )
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The result of having no control over one's life and being aware of it is fear. When fear is too unbearable, sometimes it switches over into anger, which is more proactive and easier to bear. It's a relief from that crushing fear. It feels better than the fear. It's addictive.
Exactly! Fear hurts and weakens, but anger strengthens and feels like armor.
But I never understood why Sam's anger was considered so over the top - there was definitely provocation for it. Acknowledgment of that might have allowed him to accept how destructive it was and move on.I think this may be because Sam's anger will play a big role in the last few episodes of the season (this is pure speculation). If Sam resolves his anger issues it might hinder Lucifer's plans in some way. I also think that Sam can't talk through his anger issues with Dean because Dean doesn't want to have that conversation. As Dean said in "Sam, Interrupted," he wants to keep bottling his own emotions up, because it is the only way he knows how to cope - ( ... )
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I often have a hard time understanding where Sam's coming from
I have this same issue with Dean! I think that's why I'm so hesitant to try to understand Dean's motivations. Sam on the other hand - I understand too well.
I like to think he's headed toward a redemption that will involve mastering those feelings and, even more, succeeding at something he tries to do.
That would be amazing!
That repeated failure that you so perfectly sum up has to be emasculating and frustrating, so it's no wonder failure is linked with anger.
Not only is it emasculating and frustrating but it also essentially invalidates Sam's choices. Every choice Sam made - no matter how questionable - was done with a goal in mind. Every time he fails, it proves that his choice was the wrong one. If even one of his choices ends up being right it would be a massive relief for him.
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