Just another day
I haven't wrote in here in a long ass time, because my computer is fucked up! I thought my uncle was going to get a new one, but nooo he didn't get approved! It sucks. Hopefully one of these days I'll be able to afford one. lol. Right now I have one hell of a migraine and thats probably from my lil cousins running around like a bunch of hyperactive kids lol.
I really miss talking to Matt, but it's been so long since I have talked to him. I am beginning to wonder if he's forgot about me?? It doesn't matter. I am used to rejection! Not that I am pouting or anything. I am just being honest and truthful. People are always letting me down, just when I get a bit of hope. My friends are always telling me how wonderful it is to be in love, but it ends in heartache, always. I just don't see putting myself through a couple of good months/years whatever just so it can come crashing down on me. Nothing good lasts forever. I'm not saying that I never want to be in love, I just want to find the person for me. Not a soul mate, just someone who likes me for me for me. Someone who appreciates my flaws and my imperfections. I don't want some guy who wants me to change into some bimbo. I am tired of being looked at as a sexual play thing. Sure sex is great, but usually it leaves me feeling empty and lonely. I want a guy who loves to have fun and experience life, instead of always sitting at home. There is just so much I want to do in my life, but I don't know if I'll ever get to do it. I want to be able to share it with him. Maybe I sound too much like a fairytale, perhaps that's why I haven't found it yet. I am basing my ideals on something fictional which doesn't exist in today's society, where romance is dead and everything is based on sex.
My mind is full of creativity at the moment and I am wanting to write another Harry/Draco story. I want it to be from Harry's POV, but I am not sure I can do it. I love reading H/D, and I have wrote some stories which are posted on FF.net. Hmm...hopefully I can write this story. I know I want to be a multi-chaptered fic, but I don't have much else in mind.
Well, I am going to go work on my fic.
MONICA*
I really miss talking to Matt, but it's been so long since I have talked to him. I am beginning to wonder if he's forgot about me?? It doesn't matter. I am used to rejection! Not that I am pouting or anything. I am just being honest and truthful. People are always letting me down, just when I get a bit of hope. My friends are always telling me how wonderful it is to be in love, but it ends in heartache, always. I just don't see putting myself through a couple of good months/years whatever just so it can come crashing down on me. Nothing good lasts forever. I'm not saying that I never want to be in love, I just want to find the person for me. Not a soul mate, just someone who likes me for me for me. Someone who appreciates my flaws and my imperfections. I don't want some guy who wants me to change into some bimbo. I am tired of being looked at as a sexual play thing. Sure sex is great, but usually it leaves me feeling empty and lonely. I want a guy who loves to have fun and experience life, instead of always sitting at home. There is just so much I want to do in my life, but I don't know if I'll ever get to do it. I want to be able to share it with him. Maybe I sound too much like a fairytale, perhaps that's why I haven't found it yet. I am basing my ideals on something fictional which doesn't exist in today's society, where romance is dead and everything is based on sex.
My mind is full of creativity at the moment and I am wanting to write another Harry/Draco story. I want it to be from Harry's POV, but I am not sure I can do it. I love reading H/D, and I have wrote some stories which are posted on FF.net. Hmm...hopefully I can write this story. I know I want to be a multi-chaptered fic, but I don't have much else in mind.
Well, I am going to go work on my fic.
MONICA*