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Its a FUCKING miracle. Im still alive four days with almost no sleep is not normal a whole semester filled with so much stress i thought my body was going to explode. I can not believe i am still alive a 19 year old should never experience the things I to experience this last semester but i made it and i did the best i could and passed all my classes so i am pretty fucking proud of myself. as my reward I get a month of chill time. I am so excited to see everyone.
Although i feel i have a huge weight lifted there are other things I am faced with dealing with now that i have put off. My roomate decided she wants to move out and leave me a bri with the 450 dollar rent that she should be paying for the next half of the year. That we all commited to paying when we moved in here and it seems illegal or just plain inhuman to leave us with that responsibility, even if your having problems. Bri was excited that my friend lane wanted to move in so she told hillary she might be able to move. It was never a sure thing. I knew it was a mistake from the beginning and i never wanted to be involved. Mean while i feel hillary was looking for any excuse to pin on us so she could move out and even the idea of lane moving in made her spring into action and make promised to others without ever being sure lane was moving in. Lane is not coming and now Bri will be forced to get a job along with being a full time student at this school is hell and If i have to pay anymore i wont be able to live here. I just dont understand how a person can do that and i think a lot of people will resent her for her decision. I dont understand how anyone can be oblivious to the world around them or the people around them and how there actions influence others. I liked living with her even though it was hard and we were both going through a lot. I also feel i lost a really great friend this semester and it sucks because she was unlike anybody i have ever met. but honestly If she is truly unhappy her moving in with your boyfriend is not going to change anything. It will probably just cause more problems if anything. I guess only time will tell what is going to happen i just know i am screwed no matter what happens and it sucks.
Although i feel i have a huge weight lifted there are other things I am faced with dealing with now that i have put off. My roomate decided she wants to move out and leave me a bri with the 450 dollar rent that she should be paying for the next half of the year. That we all commited to paying when we moved in here and it seems illegal or just plain inhuman to leave us with that responsibility, even if your having problems. Bri was excited that my friend lane wanted to move in so she told hillary she might be able to move. It was never a sure thing. I knew it was a mistake from the beginning and i never wanted to be involved. Mean while i feel hillary was looking for any excuse to pin on us so she could move out and even the idea of lane moving in made her spring into action and make promised to others without ever being sure lane was moving in. Lane is not coming and now Bri will be forced to get a job along with being a full time student at this school is hell and If i have to pay anymore i wont be able to live here. I just dont understand how a person can do that and i think a lot of people will resent her for her decision. I dont understand how anyone can be oblivious to the world around them or the people around them and how there actions influence others. I liked living with her even though it was hard and we were both going through a lot. I also feel i lost a really great friend this semester and it sucks because she was unlike anybody i have ever met. but honestly If she is truly unhappy her moving in with your boyfriend is not going to change anything. It will probably just cause more problems if anything. I guess only time will tell what is going to happen i just know i am screwed no matter what happens and it sucks.