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I have not updated my journal in sometime. I find this online world one that can tear at the heart. I have had two friends now just vanished. The first was sayusayme who has not updated her journal in 25 weeks. The second was lunalovelight who, just about a week ago, took me off her friends list effectively locking me out of her journal. In both cases I sent email saying that I did not wish to intrude, but that if there was something that I had done to offend that I wanted to apologize. I did not receive an answer from either of them.
This forum is such a difficult way to interact with people. You meet someone, you grow fond of them and then, in an instant, they can be gone from your life without a trace. Lunalovelight for example is somewhere in Warsaw, Poland. I have email addresses for her, but I have emailed her and she has not answered. If she does not wish me to be a part of her life this is her choice and I must respect this and not intrude. It is still hard, though, after a year of reading her journal and talking with her about her entries she is gone. She leaves an empty place in my heart as any friend would, but I have never seen her face to face or heard her voice.
I think this is why I have fallen so deeply in love with my Rose. It was she who encouraged me to write and attempt to understand what had happened. She told me:
"I think you should talk to her and ask her what you
have done..contact her ..send her an email
...friendship and love are the most important things
in this world"
She is right in this of course and I am grateful for her wisdom and understanding. What can I say when it takes a dying woman to make me understand such things. She has so much that she must deal with in her life right now but she takes time out to love me and to teach me. I don't know why I was granted such a beautiful gift as her, but I will cherish her for as long as I am allowed to have her in my life.
This forum is such a difficult way to interact with people. You meet someone, you grow fond of them and then, in an instant, they can be gone from your life without a trace. Lunalovelight for example is somewhere in Warsaw, Poland. I have email addresses for her, but I have emailed her and she has not answered. If she does not wish me to be a part of her life this is her choice and I must respect this and not intrude. It is still hard, though, after a year of reading her journal and talking with her about her entries she is gone. She leaves an empty place in my heart as any friend would, but I have never seen her face to face or heard her voice.
I think this is why I have fallen so deeply in love with my Rose. It was she who encouraged me to write and attempt to understand what had happened. She told me:
"I think you should talk to her and ask her what you
have done..contact her ..send her an email
...friendship and love are the most important things
in this world"
She is right in this of course and I am grateful for her wisdom and understanding. What can I say when it takes a dying woman to make me understand such things. She has so much that she must deal with in her life right now but she takes time out to love me and to teach me. I don't know why I was granted such a beautiful gift as her, but I will cherish her for as long as I am allowed to have her in my life.