some gut spilling

[mongoloidbaby]

i just noted this in my reply to dani about her roof collapsing, but I thought it bore elaboration, some self reflection and genuine concern on my part. Maybe I just need to let it out, have someone tell me I'm wrong or suggest a solution, I don't know, but here it is

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[onegirl_army]

Seeing other people upset makes me very uncomfortable. Especially if they're crying. I can pretend like I care, whether it's that I know that's what they need, or it's simply to make stop the discomforting situation sooner, I don't know. Sometimes I hear people say "How horrible" or something similar in response to some tragedy in the paper. It sounds so canned. Honestly, usually apathy comes before empathy for me. I don't know them. People die all the time. I don't care. I don't know them. I don't care. If you say you care about people dying that you don't know, I assume it's a facade.

But hey, that's just me.

[mongoloidbaby]

i do care about people I don't know dying, like I'm upset about this hellhole in new orleans right now, but more for the sake of the larger implications. If I allow myself to think about it and imagine myself in their shoes, I can probably conjure a lot of feeling on their behalf, but it may not show in any obvious way.

My problem isn't that I don't feel empathy for people, i do, massive amounts, I just worry that I'm unable to express it in a way that gets across to them that I do feel it.