I Hate To Be You (When You Don’t Love Me Anymore)
“Isn’t this day gorgeous as the Angels brought you back to me? Sure they will be devastated to see the tears in your eyes, but can you bear it for me? I don’t want to see you cry because of me anymore. I don’t deserve even a drop of it.” - M.G.M.N. - Lee
A week had passed by in a flash and Eunhyuk’s heart had been oblivious and nervous every time he thinks about Donghae looking and searching for him.
Can Donghae find him? Can he?
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Donghae stared at his ceiling filled with the glow-in-the-dark stickers (that’s how he spent his time for the past weeks after he went back to the country aside from searching for Eunhyuk and visiting his pre-school at the same time).
He just finished visiting the pre-school he had built 5 years ago and 3 years ago after he met Eunhyuk. Everyone, of course welcomed him with open arms. And he saw how it changed over the years. His small school becomes as big as the elementary school like the one in the town next to theirs.
And even though he didn’t have the time to visit there for the past few years, he didn’t forget to make sure his school progress. And his hard work paid off.
He then smiled thinking about the kids with their smiles plastered on their lips as they bid their goodbye to him when he left. He will miss them. But he misses… his Hyukkie more.
And his daydream was about to send him to dreamland when his cell phone vibrated. He then took his phone out of his pocket and read the message.
From: Unkwon number
To: Lee Donghae
Donghae-sshi, it’s Nari.
I’ve been calling you for the past few days
But I cannot reach you.
I already talked to them.
And though, it was heartbreaking for them,
Specially with Teukie Oppa and Minnie,
Eunhyuk decided it himself.
Go to the restaurant named Lao Fang.
I’ve already reserved a table for the two of you.
Please do come.
Be there at 7PM.
Ps: don’t be late! ^__<
He rose up from his bed and re-read the lines once again. Donghae blinks as the words keeps repeating inside his brain over and over again.
“Eunhyuk wanted to see me?”
And the thought made Donghae’s lips curves into a smile. He then wasted no time and gets himself ready to see his Hyukkie once again.
Oh! How excited can he be?
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“Hyuk,” Nari called him as he stretches inside the closed practice room.
“Can you go to this restaurant?” She asks and showed him a picture of the said restaurant.
“Lao Fang? Why, Noona? Are you craving on something again?” He asks.
“I-uh… uh-yes…” Nari smiled nervously.
“Okay. What do you want me to buy?”
“Actually… there’s someone I wanted you to…” Nari’s voice trailed off as she couldn’t find her voice.
“Yes, Noona?”
“There’s someone I needed you to meet.” There. She said it.
Eunhyuk swallowed when the person who’s bugging him all these time come flashing up in his mind.
“I-it’s not Ha-him, is it?” He asks, trembling.
“Y-yes.” God! Why was she so nervous?
“Y-you wanted me to see him? As in right now?”
“At seven in the evening, Hyuk. You have enough to make yourself pretty.” Nari then finds her pace once again and even tease Eunhyuk.
Eunhyuk, on the other hand, blushes and at the same time, got nervous.
Can he be able to see him? Can he be able to see his face once again?
Without a word, he quickly rushes out of the practice room and went to the parking lot. He didn’t mind his Noona calling out his name. His mind went blank as he started the engine and sped off towards his apartment. No. He u-turn towards the place where he and Donghae shared: their house.
Their house.
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The door creeks as he opens it slowly. The house was extremely black so he gropes towards the switch and when the light was on, he quickly roamed around the place.
It was still the same. Though the webs and the dust everywhere was new to him, he scrapes the dust away from the sofa and slid his fingers towards the grand piano in the center. He then frowned seeing finger marks left in the keys like someone went in and played. He frowned even more when the fingers marks are on the same keys in the piece they used to play: A Kiss from a Rose.
He pressed his fingers on top of the marks and remembered the piece he and Donghae loved to play.
His tears then come rushing down unnoticed. He took his seat on the chair in front of it for support because of the sudden loneliness he felt at the moment he remembered Donghae and everything about Donghae.
So Hae did come back. And he thought Hae already forgot about their home.
He didn’t.
Eunhyuk’s lips formed a small smile as he cries in front of the piano. He missed… Donghae. Yeah. He finally admits it to himself that he misses him though the pain he caused was still there, stinging his heart once again.
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After a moment of silence, Eunhyuk then decided to clean up the untidy house. He wiped his tears with the back of his hand and took his jacket off, pulled his long sleeves in three-fourths before getting the mop, a towel and a broom and started emerging himself into cleaning the entire house.
He was too engrossed in cleaning that he forgets the time passed by. He looks at his wristwatch and find the short hand stops at the number seven and the longer hand was about to come at twelve.
He got startled and drops the mop he was holding and quickly went to the bathroom and took a quick shower. After he’s done, he searches inside their cabinet for comfortable clothes to wear. He then found black jeans, white v-neck shirt and a black jacket to go with it. He finishes his look wearing a tin silver bracelet and white sneakers and leaves his hair wavy as it is.
He remembered how Donghae praised him before on how good he looks in black. He said his milky skin was even milkier when he wears something black.
Eunhyuk unknowingly smiles at the thought. He then snaps out from giggling in love when his phone rang.
“Noona!” He answered.
“Hyuk! Thank God you finally answer! I’ve been calling you for hours! Shin’s been freaking out with jealousy here! Anyways, where are you now? Are you not going?”
He then stops and have his mind re-think about it. Well, he was dressed, is he? So, is he going or not?
“I… I’ll… see him.” He said that made his Noona screamed in excitement.
“Thank you, Hyuk! Are you already there yet? Where are you already? Are you now in front of him?”
“Noona,” He chuckled. Like Nari Noona is more than excited more than him. Well, is he not? “I’m not there yet. I’m still in the house.”
“What? It’s almost seven Hyuk! And you’re not in your house, I checked.”
“I went home.” He simply answered. “I’ll go now, Noona. I’ll see you tomorrow.”
“Don’t forget to tell me the details, okay Hyuk?”
“A-arrasso.”
And before he ended the call, he heard his Hyung’s voice over the line.
“Nari, let Eunhyuk be. Eunhyuk Fighting!”
“Well, fighting for me too, then. Hooo!” Eunhyuk cheered himself and loses his stress before getting outside the house and into his car.
He then sped his car off towards the restaurant.
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Dugeun~Dugeun~
His heart beats faster and faster as the time flew by. He checks his wristwatch and it says he’s been waiting a little late, he guesses. Well, he’s been at the restaurant to early and he’s been sitting for almost an hour already.
“Patience, Hae. Patience.” He said calming himself.
“Are you not going to order yet, Sir?” A waiter then approaches him.
“No, not yet. Thank you, though. I’ve been waiting for someone.” He smiled nervously.
“Maybe that person is too important. You’ve been waiting for almost an hour, Sir.” The waiter couldn’t help but to comment.
He just smiled to him and waits again… patiently.
‘Where are you, Hyukkie? Aren’t you going to see me?’
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Eunhyuk, on the other hand was caught by a traffic jam. Some cars bumped each other while their owners drowned themselves in the name of the alcohol.
He tsk-ed. He was wasting his time tapping his fingers into the dashboard. He then looks at his wristwatch and cursed. Obviously, he lost the chance to see him. Maybe he got tired of waiting. Maybe he was not in the restaurant anymore.
And without thinking, even before a traffic enforcer got close to his car, he emerges from it and quickly ran towards the restaurant. He even heard the traffic enforcer called him but he was too absorbed in catching Donghae in that restaurant that seemed so far.
He believes in his heart that he’s still there. Well, Donghae thought him to believe in miracles. And he will, right now. He just hopes he was still there.
He then crosses his fingers as he headed towards the location of the restaurant and prayed to God he’s still there, still waiting for him.
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‘Wait, Lee Donghae. Maybe he got into a traffic jam. Maybe he got late because he wanted to look good in front of you. Maybe… maybe…’
He sighed. He was losing his one and only chance Nari Noona had given him.
‘What if he doesn’t really want to see me? What if…’
“Sir?”
He snaps out as the waiter came back and looks at him with concern eyes.
“Are you sure that person will meet you, Sir? I heard there’s a car accident nearby. Maybe she got-“
And he didn’t let the waiter finishes his speech as he flies towards the exit and was about to run for his life-no for his love when he stops a few meters away from the restaurant and saw the person he’s been waiting to see all this time. Eunhyuk was now in front of his seeking eyes.
“Hyukkie…”
He called and it came out from his longing mouth almost a whisper as he stares at Eunhyuk’s face with the same longing he saw in his eyes too.
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Eunhyuk ran without stopping as he thinks of the guy he was about to meet. He was too absorbed with the thought that he’ll never have the chance to see him once again. But as Donghae have said, miracles do come true as he saw the person he has been longing for to see stands in front of him.
He catches his breathe while staring at him, memorizing the new Donghae in front of him, keeping the face intact in his mind and his heart.
He cannot believe it! The Donghae he loved so much was now here in front of him, looking at his eyes, breathing the same air he breathes and catching his breath as well as he does.
“H-Hae…” He suddenly blurted out the word, the nickname he used to call him. Oh! How his mouth missed calling that nickname badly.
Then slowly, Donghae takes a step forward to him.
And it was the time he started waking up from daydreaming.
What will he do?
Move his feet backwards or move his heart forwards?
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