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Welp, it has been Ye Olden Grippe since the last post..eth?
Spent Christmas and the New Year with Daniel. I can't even begin to say how much I needed that. I was beginning to feel like a withered old balloon, and Daniel being here blew some life back into me. We spent lots of time together on the Yamanote line by day (that's basically very near Tokyo city) and watching movies by night. And all those other gooey lovey things that will remain, for all our sakes, behind closed doors. I'm so glad he got to be here with me for the holidays. I don't know how I'dve managed it otherwise.
However, with him being gone, it further seems to highlight just how much of a sore thumb I am here and how much I really seem to stick out. -Not that I mind that aspect of myself, but I wish I knew a sore thumb here that sticks out the way I do.
Despite how hard the past couple of days have seemed inside me, I haven't been crying much at all. Maybe for like a few seconds before bed, but it doesn't last long at all. For the most part.. I feel like this little balloon is floating numbly and aimlessly around for no reason or purpose. Perhaps that will change in due time...
In the midst of all the stuff on my mind... I couldn't have anyone greater than the Lord holding my hand the whole time, leading my tiny, ever-stumbling baby steps down His narrow path. He has been so kind to me and so gracious... I can't imagine how I'd be doing now if He wasn't here with me. I wrote a prayer out to Him last night before I went to bed and was so thankful that His word doesn't say, "Be anxious for nothing, but I'm winging this as much as you are, and I don't really know what's in store for you next either." He knows exactly what He's doing, and He has everything laid out to the last detail. I want to try my very best to listen carefully for all His instructions.. Especially now, when I am feeling so lost and stagnant.
"Our extremity is God's beginning." -Gene Scott
Spent Christmas and the New Year with Daniel. I can't even begin to say how much I needed that. I was beginning to feel like a withered old balloon, and Daniel being here blew some life back into me. We spent lots of time together on the Yamanote line by day (that's basically very near Tokyo city) and watching movies by night. And all those other gooey lovey things that will remain, for all our sakes, behind closed doors. I'm so glad he got to be here with me for the holidays. I don't know how I'dve managed it otherwise.
However, with him being gone, it further seems to highlight just how much of a sore thumb I am here and how much I really seem to stick out. -Not that I mind that aspect of myself, but I wish I knew a sore thumb here that sticks out the way I do.
Despite how hard the past couple of days have seemed inside me, I haven't been crying much at all. Maybe for like a few seconds before bed, but it doesn't last long at all. For the most part.. I feel like this little balloon is floating numbly and aimlessly around for no reason or purpose. Perhaps that will change in due time...
In the midst of all the stuff on my mind... I couldn't have anyone greater than the Lord holding my hand the whole time, leading my tiny, ever-stumbling baby steps down His narrow path. He has been so kind to me and so gracious... I can't imagine how I'd be doing now if He wasn't here with me. I wrote a prayer out to Him last night before I went to bed and was so thankful that His word doesn't say, "Be anxious for nothing, but I'm winging this as much as you are, and I don't really know what's in store for you next either." He knows exactly what He's doing, and He has everything laid out to the last detail. I want to try my very best to listen carefully for all His instructions.. Especially now, when I am feeling so lost and stagnant.
"Our extremity is God's beginning." -Gene Scott