Today I recall

[moneybelt]

It hit me. Everything came back. The torrent of work to clear, the belatedness of things. I remember my past professional life before I took a break and remembered why I took a break. Am I suited for this? Did I enjoy my work? They are irrelevant questions. The direction is just to get through it. Get through it for chrissakes. I admit it gets easier with experience, it is solvable. It is taking me shorter and shorter time to solve and come up with answers. I respond differently to pressure and belittlement. It is  stark contrast. Today, I recall.

from some other day
it wasn't sadness
but profound
regret that seemed to sink
and find the
wondrous depth of
memories
romance