sour november
arrg sooo sooo depressed. i hate it i wish i could just put my finger on one reason why and fix it or something but its not so simple u know. well u probably don't know. i mean i luv ya amanda good times and nicks a fun cat. although elliot seriously just shut up i don't know why u always want to bring me down and crush my feelings. perhaps to raise urself up, but face it i'm not competing with u so just shut the fuck up for once!
I hate liars yet i keep finding more and more of them. I don't lie, i can keep a secret but i won't decieve someone, especially myself. i'm tired of crying alone because no one can help. I just don't feel like i fit in. I don't have a real place to settle. I can't wait to go to college and leave all this behind some days. plus i know that in a couple days its Thanksgiving and i'll be up at my Dad's cabin and once again i'll be a fifth wheel. i don't even fit in with my own family. they just don't get me and they don't try. i'm sick of impressing people. I'm sick of my own "friends" bringing me down or trying to use me. I just feel empty.
I hate liars yet i keep finding more and more of them. I don't lie, i can keep a secret but i won't decieve someone, especially myself. i'm tired of crying alone because no one can help. I just don't feel like i fit in. I don't have a real place to settle. I can't wait to go to college and leave all this behind some days. plus i know that in a couple days its Thanksgiving and i'll be up at my Dad's cabin and once again i'll be a fifth wheel. i don't even fit in with my own family. they just don't get me and they don't try. i'm sick of impressing people. I'm sick of my own "friends" bringing me down or trying to use me. I just feel empty.