Big Toe, Reunion, Mom, and an Ex rolled up in one
Okay, so the U.S. Army can suck my big toe. I found out last night that Eddie can't make it after all to the wedding. I won't lie, I was pissed. I mean, we moved the wedding up to accommodate Eddie so that he could be there since Mike desperately wanted him there. By doing that, caused huge fights with my parents, disagreements with Mike, stress up the wazoo and headaches non-stop since the end of March.
Don't get me wrong, I don't blame Eddie, because I know that he isn't doing this on purpose. It's just stupid. Why can't the army just give him that weekend off. Just two or three days. I think I'll blame someone else. I blame them for not turning in the right form so that Eddie can come to the wedding.
I guess Eddie's wife and kids aren't going to come out either. I just don't understand that. Why wouldn't she come, and see it so that she can tell Eddie herself how it was. Or take pictures herself to send them to him. Who is thinking of whom. I guess I'll just leave my opinions to myself on that topic.
Today was my family reunion. It was boring. No immediate family members of mine were there. Mike wasn't there and everyone asked where he was. Got tired of saying that he was in Chicago working. Everyone wanted to know about more details of the wedding and I'm just tired of telling everyone EVERYTHING.
I felt like I really didn't have anyone to talk to, except my Aunt Kris who left early before BINGO even started. (We got to the reunion at 12:45 and didn't leave until around 4. It was a long stinking afternoon.) At least Aunt Kris's husband, my uncle Steve, asked me how married life was going. He thought I got married yesterday. He's silly and was probably smoking something, and I'm serious about that.
My parents got on my last nerve today. I had to play at the church because the normal pianist wasn't going to be there. My dad volunteered me to play, and told me FRIDAY AFTERNOON. This wouldn't have been so bad, if I wasn't exhausted from a garage sale that happened on Friday and Saturday. It also wouldn't have been so bad if I would have known a little bit before hand. I sucked today. I made mistakes and I was just embarrassed. Not one person even came up to me to say thank you for playing today. I feel just loved at my church. I honestly think they just use me for their needs.
My moms' leg is hurting her more. I came downstairs this evening and she was crying because of how her leg was hurting her. I felt bad. I know my mom and I don't get along very well, but I can still feel bad. I stayed downstairs to help her out so that she doesn't have to walk. (The doctor believes that there is a small fracture in her knee which is why it is so swollen and it is hard for her to walk.) While I was helping her, I didn't want to complain about the shots of pain I was getting in my back that has been occurring for the past few days if I move a certain way. I don't want to be the center of attention.
I talked to an ex today. I know I shouldn't have done it, because he always puts me in a funk. It's just hard because how long we had been together. He had made a comment in that I always think about myself and no one else. I honestly hope that isn't the case, but with the different situations that we went through I can understand why he would say that with our past. However I hope I am not that way today.
Don't get me wrong, I don't blame Eddie, because I know that he isn't doing this on purpose. It's just stupid. Why can't the army just give him that weekend off. Just two or three days. I think I'll blame someone else. I blame them for not turning in the right form so that Eddie can come to the wedding.
I guess Eddie's wife and kids aren't going to come out either. I just don't understand that. Why wouldn't she come, and see it so that she can tell Eddie herself how it was. Or take pictures herself to send them to him. Who is thinking of whom. I guess I'll just leave my opinions to myself on that topic.
Today was my family reunion. It was boring. No immediate family members of mine were there. Mike wasn't there and everyone asked where he was. Got tired of saying that he was in Chicago working. Everyone wanted to know about more details of the wedding and I'm just tired of telling everyone EVERYTHING.
I felt like I really didn't have anyone to talk to, except my Aunt Kris who left early before BINGO even started. (We got to the reunion at 12:45 and didn't leave until around 4. It was a long stinking afternoon.) At least Aunt Kris's husband, my uncle Steve, asked me how married life was going. He thought I got married yesterday. He's silly and was probably smoking something, and I'm serious about that.
My parents got on my last nerve today. I had to play at the church because the normal pianist wasn't going to be there. My dad volunteered me to play, and told me FRIDAY AFTERNOON. This wouldn't have been so bad, if I wasn't exhausted from a garage sale that happened on Friday and Saturday. It also wouldn't have been so bad if I would have known a little bit before hand. I sucked today. I made mistakes and I was just embarrassed. Not one person even came up to me to say thank you for playing today. I feel just loved at my church. I honestly think they just use me for their needs.
My moms' leg is hurting her more. I came downstairs this evening and she was crying because of how her leg was hurting her. I felt bad. I know my mom and I don't get along very well, but I can still feel bad. I stayed downstairs to help her out so that she doesn't have to walk. (The doctor believes that there is a small fracture in her knee which is why it is so swollen and it is hard for her to walk.) While I was helping her, I didn't want to complain about the shots of pain I was getting in my back that has been occurring for the past few days if I move a certain way. I don't want to be the center of attention.
I talked to an ex today. I know I shouldn't have done it, because he always puts me in a funk. It's just hard because how long we had been together. He had made a comment in that I always think about myself and no one else. I honestly hope that isn't the case, but with the different situations that we went through I can understand why he would say that with our past. However I hope I am not that way today.