Beautifully Maddening
Last night was Changeling night.
The Changeling game in Sheffield kicks enormous amounts of ass, I dare say it might kick ALL the ASS. I am having so much fun with it in ways that don't make any sense, considering that the character I play is one who has spent the majority of the last two sessions either crying or hiding from people. I love the depth of psychology the character has, she's just so intriguing and interesting to develop, especially taking into account how the other characters in the game are dealing with her - Changelings of a freehold tend towards being a cautious lot, and had to talk with her to find out if she was a threat to them, after that, the more sympathetic ones (and the ones who know the most dangerous ones are the ones who are that broken inside) are trying to make her better or help her. I think part of it is just how challenging the character is to play, she's traumatised and distressed and terrified of everything (EXCEPT her shadow), pulling it off and doing it well makes me feel great.
Gemma is still very fragile, and after last night perhaps more so, but at least she is being looked after by someone now (an Elemental: the ones who have almost no people skills). Okay, so she's moved from an abandoned building's cellar to an attic crawl space but at least there's actual bedding in it, and now there's good food to eat that she doesn't have to steal and the occasional hot meal too. On the downside, she's just suffered a major breakdown and is now completely lost in terms of what she needs to do to find her daughter; so spending lots of time crying in the crawlspace...
I feel the need to write a proper thing about her state at the moment, she had more than an education last night in lots of things, and some things have developed in ways I knew they were going to, and some haven't. I've written so much so far, it's amazing how much I can go on and on about her.
The Changeling game in Sheffield kicks enormous amounts of ass, I dare say it might kick ALL the ASS. I am having so much fun with it in ways that don't make any sense, considering that the character I play is one who has spent the majority of the last two sessions either crying or hiding from people. I love the depth of psychology the character has, she's just so intriguing and interesting to develop, especially taking into account how the other characters in the game are dealing with her - Changelings of a freehold tend towards being a cautious lot, and had to talk with her to find out if she was a threat to them, after that, the more sympathetic ones (and the ones who know the most dangerous ones are the ones who are that broken inside) are trying to make her better or help her. I think part of it is just how challenging the character is to play, she's traumatised and distressed and terrified of everything (EXCEPT her shadow), pulling it off and doing it well makes me feel great.
Gemma is still very fragile, and after last night perhaps more so, but at least she is being looked after by someone now (an Elemental: the ones who have almost no people skills). Okay, so she's moved from an abandoned building's cellar to an attic crawl space but at least there's actual bedding in it, and now there's good food to eat that she doesn't have to steal and the occasional hot meal too. On the downside, she's just suffered a major breakdown and is now completely lost in terms of what she needs to do to find her daughter; so spending lots of time crying in the crawlspace...
I feel the need to write a proper thing about her state at the moment, she had more than an education last night in lots of things, and some things have developed in ways I knew they were going to, and some haven't. I've written so much so far, it's amazing how much I can go on and on about her.