little things
I don't expect anybody to understand where I am at in my life right now and exactly what I am going through. The past couple of months have totally changed my outlook on life. In almost 21 years, the phrase "here today, gone tomorrow" has never hit so close to home.
I never thought that at this point in my life I would have dealt with drug addicts, cheaters, liars, assholes, idiots, and some of the most fake people that could ever exist. I am so proud to say that although I have had the misfortune of calling a majority of those people my "friends", I (for the most part) stayed true to myself and my beliefs and never fell into any seriously bad stuff...thankfully.
Honestly, sometimes I think about the people I don't talk to much anymore and I do get sad. I miss you guys and I miss the times that we had when we laughed so hard I almost peed my pants. I miss drinking bum jugs and listening to loud music and learning stupid music video dances. I miss it all, on occasion, but even when I am around you guys for only 15 seconds I feel like I am around total strangers.
Naturally, I am going to disagree with your lifestyle. I don't like the things you are doing and I refuse to be around it. That, for me, is a personal choice. I don't expect any of you to change or stop. What you do is your choice, and that is exactly what I am choosing to let it be.
I don't have many friends left anymore, but for the first time in my life, I don't even care. I'm seriously stoked on the next couple of months. Superbowl Sunday (GO SAINTS!), Valentines day with a non-shit head, one year anniversary, and finally the big 2-1 :)!
I seriously can not remember the last time I had so little but was so happy. I really think Jason is mostly to blame for that, but I won't give him all the credit. I have also really changed the person I was and you know what, without drama in your life, everything is better. I don't talk about people like I used to because I really don't care anymore for the most part. I've gained a second family that I would do anything for, no matter how much I complain.
As I mentioned before, I really don't expect any of you to understand exactly what is going on in my life right now. I think when it comes down to it all the matters is that we are all happy, no matter what any of us is doing. I am not asking any of you to change who you are but I know you guys are smart and I want you to use your brains and be safe. No matter what has happened between any of us, if you are reading this, we were friends at one time and I will always love and cherish the times we shared :)
I never thought that at this point in my life I would have dealt with drug addicts, cheaters, liars, assholes, idiots, and some of the most fake people that could ever exist. I am so proud to say that although I have had the misfortune of calling a majority of those people my "friends", I (for the most part) stayed true to myself and my beliefs and never fell into any seriously bad stuff...thankfully.
Honestly, sometimes I think about the people I don't talk to much anymore and I do get sad. I miss you guys and I miss the times that we had when we laughed so hard I almost peed my pants. I miss drinking bum jugs and listening to loud music and learning stupid music video dances. I miss it all, on occasion, but even when I am around you guys for only 15 seconds I feel like I am around total strangers.
Naturally, I am going to disagree with your lifestyle. I don't like the things you are doing and I refuse to be around it. That, for me, is a personal choice. I don't expect any of you to change or stop. What you do is your choice, and that is exactly what I am choosing to let it be.
I don't have many friends left anymore, but for the first time in my life, I don't even care. I'm seriously stoked on the next couple of months. Superbowl Sunday (GO SAINTS!), Valentines day with a non-shit head, one year anniversary, and finally the big 2-1 :)!
I seriously can not remember the last time I had so little but was so happy. I really think Jason is mostly to blame for that, but I won't give him all the credit. I have also really changed the person I was and you know what, without drama in your life, everything is better. I don't talk about people like I used to because I really don't care anymore for the most part. I've gained a second family that I would do anything for, no matter how much I complain.
As I mentioned before, I really don't expect any of you to understand exactly what is going on in my life right now. I think when it comes down to it all the matters is that we are all happy, no matter what any of us is doing. I am not asking any of you to change who you are but I know you guys are smart and I want you to use your brains and be safe. No matter what has happened between any of us, if you are reading this, we were friends at one time and I will always love and cherish the times we shared :)