Sep 16, 2011 18:04
There's something strange and surreal in finding that among your two main characters whom you love and adore and are proud of beyond words... one of them is the villain of your story.
It's not intentional on his part, just a selfish disregard for anyone else's wishes or well-being. But the last big hurrah of their story goes to shit, and it's all his fault and it could well easily have been avoided if the bastard could keep his pants on and he loses everyone that's important to him and... he has it coming. Still, all he can do is play the pity card and feel bad about himself for being abandoned because he destroyed the lives of those who mean the most to him.
I don't think my mind can wrap itself around the concept, I can't feel both sides at the same time. He and his brother have helped me through a lot. If I ever needed to talk to someone when I was alone, if I ever needed someone to walk me through a problem when nobody was around, I talked to them. Sometimes it helped. Sometimes it made me feel like a fool.
So... I dunno. I guess, here's to you, Jhao. I'm glad I got to know you, but things are changing between us. Let's just see where it leaves us.
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