"Camilla".
"And I thought, I don't want to be beautiful. I don't want to be like a camellia or a rose or any kind of flower. I wish I had red hair and freckles and a big mouth like Luisa's. I wish people were still saying what a pity it is I don't look like my mother.
Damn beauty, I thought, and wished that God would strike me down for swearing. But that is not the kind of thing the God I believe in does. If there is going to be any kind of striking down, you have to do it yourself. God does not do it for you."