I wish I had more hands so i could give Q5 four thumbs down!
Look at this, I'm updating again...how awesome am I? ok, not too awesome ::sighs:: sooo I guess I feel like expressing myself today, somewhat. Yesterday I experienced something I hadn't in a long while, I got really REALLY mad at a friend. The feeling was almost unknown to me and as I cursed this person in all sorts of languages in my head somehow I couldn't make a connection and at several points of the conversation I found myself speechless...that's right absolutely quiet. Once I noticed that I've been self-muting myself most of the time I kinda went overboard and maybe I said some things I didn't really mean. I'm still really tense about it and disgusted...the past days have opened up this certain person and I found out things that threw me off balance and made me lose so much respect and trust in this person that I wonder how I'll ever face (let's call this person...Q5) Q5 without feeling nauseous. It would help if I had a more discreet face but geesh I make so many faces I bet I'll have wrinkles by 32. Yet, I can't help thinking maybe I was too strict, maybe sometimes i set my standards too high for people, maybe maybe juuusst maybe. I like to be an understanding person (go ahead, laugh if you will..but i am) when some sort of conflict arises I try my best to be in the other person's shoes and project myself, see if I'm the problem...but I think i'm right this time and Q5 needs to be disposed of. However, this is the first "fight" I feel I should give another chance...that chance will not be given until Q5 makes some sort of apology though...am I being too complicated? I remember being so laid back about things, what happened to that? I would've probably gotten over what Q5 did by now but I can't help feeling mad, and truth be told, I will not try to hide it or refrain from expressing myself in any way. I will not allow myself to do that, it's been done wayyyy too many times..not with Q5 but in my life in general. Anywho, school starts in a week I still need to go and buy my books so I can stare at them for a whole week, but at least I won't have to worry about buying them when everyone else is and avoiding crowds is always a plus. aahh...Dashboard-hands down just came on my media player, this song makes me so nostalgic but i LOVE when songs have meaning to me...good or bad. let me enjoy this song. ok done, soooo till my next update suckas!!