Such a fool...
Today was a pretty stressful/ frustrating day. I don't know why but I did not wake up in the greatest mood ever and as I was leaving school I even told some dude to back off when he just wanted me to participate in some activity, sorry random kid :( I guess life hasn't been as exciting and I just feel down in the dumps. I'm not even too happy about my upcoming trip and the fact that I'm not happy makes me feel like a very ungrateful person, which just puts me in an even lower state. Giselle, I seriously can't wait for that christmas party and like you I hope for an adventure as well :)
I was thinking how cool it would be for me to take a trip by myself. Just drive for hours and hours with no specific target and somehow reach the most peaceful place in the world. In this place I would just lay on the floor, listen to some good music, have some sort of snack by my side and contemplate the sky. I wish I could see an aurora, before I die that's something I definetly want to see...an aurora oh man, they're so beautiful. I remember talking about them with an old friend of mine, we used to make up the craziest stories in the world and laugh for hours. I wonder if I still have the vivid imagination I used to have. It's funny how certain people bring out certain characteristics in you and how you had never really noticed how strong they were until you talked to that specific someone. But yeah, I wish I could take this trip all by my lonesome, I might go to the park friday afternoon, a really big park and just walk for hours to see if I can finally clear my head of all these thoughts (that's about as close as I'll get to taking a trip by myself). Sometimes I wish a service like the one provided in eternal sunshine existed I'm in need for it :-\ It's the holiday season, why do I feel so unhappy? I'm actually going to check my horoscope..let's see what it tells me:
Gemini-
"You are more excited than you have been in a long time. You are waiting for someone to tell you if they're as interested in you as you are in them, and all signs so far are good. "
hahaha that contradicts my whole entry!! damn it. sighs. I hadn't checked my horoscope in years they're so crappy and never tell me what I want to hear. eh, I guess I'll go now and sleep..sleep cures everything..umm toodles?
I was thinking how cool it would be for me to take a trip by myself. Just drive for hours and hours with no specific target and somehow reach the most peaceful place in the world. In this place I would just lay on the floor, listen to some good music, have some sort of snack by my side and contemplate the sky. I wish I could see an aurora, before I die that's something I definetly want to see...an aurora oh man, they're so beautiful. I remember talking about them with an old friend of mine, we used to make up the craziest stories in the world and laugh for hours. I wonder if I still have the vivid imagination I used to have. It's funny how certain people bring out certain characteristics in you and how you had never really noticed how strong they were until you talked to that specific someone. But yeah, I wish I could take this trip all by my lonesome, I might go to the park friday afternoon, a really big park and just walk for hours to see if I can finally clear my head of all these thoughts (that's about as close as I'll get to taking a trip by myself). Sometimes I wish a service like the one provided in eternal sunshine existed I'm in need for it :-\ It's the holiday season, why do I feel so unhappy? I'm actually going to check my horoscope..let's see what it tells me:
Gemini-
"You are more excited than you have been in a long time. You are waiting for someone to tell you if they're as interested in you as you are in them, and all signs so far are good. "
hahaha that contradicts my whole entry!! damn it. sighs. I hadn't checked my horoscope in years they're so crappy and never tell me what I want to hear. eh, I guess I'll go now and sleep..sleep cures everything..umm toodles?