Just when I think I'm out, they pull me back in!
Well, LJ is for emo-ing after all. Y'all are used to it, so I'm gonna vent this here.
I'm still really fucking mad, or maybe I'm just mad all over again. I am not gonna have sweetness in my heart for anyone who makes it plain that they've been just itching to make fun of me for my social awkwardness the second they have an excuse. Fuck her. Tolerate my middle finger, bitch. Yeah, I'm nerdy, I'm socially awkward as hell, and I tend to fail sometimes when I try to be funny to break the ice. Congratulations. You can underhandedly point out my insecurities that all my real friends know about but have the kindness to not poke at. Yes, I sometimes feel awkward one-on-one with friends, even close friends! Why not point out how I was like that with you? Yes, I constantly worry that everyone I consider a friend doesn't really care about me! Of COURSE you should prey on that! Why, golly gosh, I'm so pathetic, you'd be stupid NOT to use it to your advantage. Why should I be allowed to grow a pair and stand up for myself? The nerve of me for trying!
Seriously, I hope I never fucking see her again as long as I live. I think I'll punch her in the damn face if I do. God, I wanna fucking kill her right now. And I don't want this rage to keep flaring up like this.
I'm still really fucking mad, or maybe I'm just mad all over again. I am not gonna have sweetness in my heart for anyone who makes it plain that they've been just itching to make fun of me for my social awkwardness the second they have an excuse. Fuck her. Tolerate my middle finger, bitch. Yeah, I'm nerdy, I'm socially awkward as hell, and I tend to fail sometimes when I try to be funny to break the ice. Congratulations. You can underhandedly point out my insecurities that all my real friends know about but have the kindness to not poke at. Yes, I sometimes feel awkward one-on-one with friends, even close friends! Why not point out how I was like that with you? Yes, I constantly worry that everyone I consider a friend doesn't really care about me! Of COURSE you should prey on that! Why, golly gosh, I'm so pathetic, you'd be stupid NOT to use it to your advantage. Why should I be allowed to grow a pair and stand up for myself? The nerve of me for trying!
Seriously, I hope I never fucking see her again as long as I live. I think I'll punch her in the damn face if I do. God, I wanna fucking kill her right now. And I don't want this rage to keep flaring up like this.