friends can't live without 'em...and ya' can't live wthout 'em (and ya' can't kill em unfortuanteyl)

[monahanrm]

i am at a point where i am hating bethel because of the lack of friendships, this would be the same most places i went i am sure but if i went to a school near home i would get to see my friends that i already have. there are people here who i have obviously to no avail tried to befriend, and because they don't seem to respnd to it by reciprocating friendship i have gotten to the point where i get a feeling of ver strong and undying hatred towards them just by seeing them or especially hearing there voice. this is bad seeing how bethel is a small campus for one two some...no most live in oakwood. Oh did i mention i share a room with one of them??? This makes life slightly more complicated, even if i didn't room with them it is still hard.  I am going to just keepm praying about it.  >>>i interupt this update, i HATE it when people call me matthew...zach just did, giving me more reason to hate him<<< another person that i have hatred tendancies for is my one-on-one mentor. this complicates things betond belief.

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In other news i may rearange this entire major and minor thing of mine.
I am currently a youth ministry and psychology major with my minor not figured out.

I am hopefully changing it to a music ed major, and a ym minor. we'll see

but now i am  tired do g'nite

monahan signing off