*hugs* I know the feeling. I spent two full years after graduating looking for jobs. Spending a lot of time on the computer, at home, doing seemingly nothing, with little to no response from the places I was applying to with occasional bouts of hopefulness followed by being swatted back down to really crappy feeling square 1. A lot of people underestimate how much of an effect not having a job (and not from lack of trying) really has on a persons physical and mental well being. That was really crappy two years (paired with loosing Craig). And my mom can't understand why I don't want to go looking for a higher paying job with advancement opportunities. I really do need a job that pays me more than $16 an hour but on the other hand I have GREAT benefits with 401k plan, good coworkers, I know what I am doing, and I'm a 15 minute walk away from work. AKA, I'm comfortable. Hopefully seeing a raise in January will make me more comfortable.
Anyway, *big hugs* Being at home with little to truly distract you from your misery is not fun and not getting to do the things you love because you need that job that keeps slipping through your fingers like acid smoke really really really sucks. I can safely say the two happiest moments of my life so far have been a) getting a job right before Christmas and b) being able to move out of my parents' house. There's nothing like being under the same roof with people you love but still see you as their child to make you cry yourself to sleep. After being away at college, it's pure hell.
I hope something comes up and sticks for your soon. In the mean time, sit out in the sun while we still have it, take an hour walk every day to just get OUT. I would even suggest getting involved with volunteering at places like Little Bit theraputic riding school. They're always in need of side walkers and leaders and though you wouldn't be riding, at least you'd be around those big fuzzy creatures you love! I don't know what your vehicular mobility is like though so getting out to far Redmond may not be so easy :(.
Yea, I guess I'm mostly just complaining. I'm lucky enough that Erick has a permanent, stable, secure job that will support both of us, which enables us to be able to move out my parent's house (recently). That was really nice. And Erick had the same trouble, working contract jobs until he found this permanent job that he had to take even though it wasn't in the industry that he wanted (video games). But hopefully it will keep us covered for a while. And he's very supportive.
I'm trying to stay positive, but you're right, those brief highs when you think you're close to getting that job just makes the lows even lower when they decide to go with someone else.
Anyway, *big hugs* Being at home with little to truly distract you from your misery is not fun and not getting to do the things you love because you need that job that keeps slipping through your fingers like acid smoke really really really sucks. I can safely say the two happiest moments of my life so far have been a) getting a job right before Christmas and b) being able to move out of my parents' house. There's nothing like being under the same roof with people you love but still see you as their child to make you cry yourself to sleep. After being away at college, it's pure hell.
I hope something comes up and sticks for your soon. In the mean time, sit out in the sun while we still have it, take an hour walk every day to just get OUT. I would even suggest getting involved with volunteering at places like Little Bit theraputic riding school. They're always in need of side walkers and leaders and though you wouldn't be riding, at least you'd be around those big fuzzy creatures you love! I don't know what your vehicular mobility is like though so getting out to far Redmond may not be so easy :(.
*more hugs* take care of yourself love!
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I'm trying to stay positive, but you're right, those brief highs when you think you're close to getting that job just makes the lows even lower when they decide to go with someone else.
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