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I don't really write in this anymore.
I would say that it's because I no longer have thoughts worth logging away in the abyss of internet blogsites.
Really I think it's just I don't have time for reflection on my personal life anymore.
This can be good. And this can be bad.
On the one hand, I'm super overwhelmed by my work life, which diverts me from the personal life issues I've been struggling with my entire life (and still have yet to resolve).
On the other hand... I'm super overwhelmed by my work life.
I think the worst thing about teaching is not knowing how to react in certain situations. These certain situations come up everyday... As much as I psychoanalyze them, I'm never sure of how I should react. And yet, I always feel like it is of the utmost important to react perfectly in said situations. I'm being watched by everybody, afterall. ALL DAY LONG.
I think the second worst thing about teaching is not knowing how to teach. Simply put, I've got the skills... but I'm not sure how to pass them on. I can get kids to memorize what nouns and verbs are... to be able to identify alliteration and the lines in a poem that support the theme I've already told them is going to be there. I cannot, however, get them to read and understand a poem's themes. Or write a poem with a theme. Or care about the fact that themes even exist in the first place. I guess this will come with time.
Insert exhausted sigh here.
On another note? I understand that NCLB was trying to fix the standards in schools, but honestly? They're so ambiguous and unhelpful it makes my mind bleed.
I would say that it's because I no longer have thoughts worth logging away in the abyss of internet blogsites.
Really I think it's just I don't have time for reflection on my personal life anymore.
This can be good. And this can be bad.
On the one hand, I'm super overwhelmed by my work life, which diverts me from the personal life issues I've been struggling with my entire life (and still have yet to resolve).
On the other hand... I'm super overwhelmed by my work life.
I think the worst thing about teaching is not knowing how to react in certain situations. These certain situations come up everyday... As much as I psychoanalyze them, I'm never sure of how I should react. And yet, I always feel like it is of the utmost important to react perfectly in said situations. I'm being watched by everybody, afterall. ALL DAY LONG.
I think the second worst thing about teaching is not knowing how to teach. Simply put, I've got the skills... but I'm not sure how to pass them on. I can get kids to memorize what nouns and verbs are... to be able to identify alliteration and the lines in a poem that support the theme I've already told them is going to be there. I cannot, however, get them to read and understand a poem's themes. Or write a poem with a theme. Or care about the fact that themes even exist in the first place. I guess this will come with time.
Insert exhausted sigh here.
On another note? I understand that NCLB was trying to fix the standards in schools, but honestly? They're so ambiguous and unhelpful it makes my mind bleed.