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Still bumming about the boy situation.
I'm apparently not beautiful or dependent enough for him.
I'm annoying and overwhelming and only pretty.
Starting to think I should just end it so I don't have to be concerned any more. I'll know. There will be definites again in this indefinite world. I'll be able to run free at the bars. Feel beautiful again. See myself as someone worth appreciating.
I'm trying not to take it personally. He doesn't appreciate anything in his life until it's over.
This only encourages previous said thoughts.
But I still love him.
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I'm apparently not beautiful or dependent enough for him.
I'm annoying and overwhelming and only pretty.
Starting to think I should just end it so I don't have to be concerned any more. I'll know. There will be definites again in this indefinite world. I'll be able to run free at the bars. Feel beautiful again. See myself as someone worth appreciating.
I'm trying not to take it personally. He doesn't appreciate anything in his life until it's over.
This only encourages previous said thoughts.
But I still love him.
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