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[mon_chanceux_48]

dear diary,
i have so many ideas that i want to accomplish. now
and in the long run. but lately i've been thinking
about it a lot and its making me anxious because
these ideas take money and that is something that i
just don't have. the bills seem to continue to consume
me. there are so many ideas i want to do to my apartment
(buy rugs, frame art, add furniture) i just don't have
the extra funds tho. i also want to get an ibook before
school starts in the fall and that's going to be pricey
too. meh. as far as long term is concerned, i want to
vacation in california before the winter. i also want to
live in France one day. this has always been a BIG
passion of mine. but i know that is down the road, most
likely after i get my degree. but i've been feeling
anxious about going. and just the other day i answered
a call at work, it was a man who was on business in
france and he was talking to someone in the background
in french... i felt the strongest sense of longing when
i heard them talking. i wanted to be there so bad. i
really hope it is something i don't put off for too
much longer. hopefully it will become a reality in the
next few years :]