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I bought a plane ticket today. although i'm not sure if i'm giong to use it or not.
My dad wants me to come see him, but i know if i leave i wont come back.
I'm stuck and i dont know what to do anymore.
I wish this great sprit would just show me what path i need to take so i could just stop fucking around and trying each one out before i choose.
I'm tierd of pleaseing other people before myself. when is it MY TURN to do what I want to do and to be happy? i dont understand why i give and give and give and then i get nothing in return. its that way in almost every situation in my life. i try to do whats right and what will make other people happy even if it makes me feel like i'm murdering myself.
I'M SICK OF DEALING WITH THIS SHIT. i want to just GIVE UP!!!
Maybe it would be best if i just went away.
*no more school
* no more jobs
* no more Cathy
* no more ann
* no more love.
it would all be gone. and no matter how much that would hurt me.. it would be better for the other people.
when is it my turn to be happy? when is it my turn to be free?
My dad wants me to come see him, but i know if i leave i wont come back.
I'm stuck and i dont know what to do anymore.
I wish this great sprit would just show me what path i need to take so i could just stop fucking around and trying each one out before i choose.
I'm tierd of pleaseing other people before myself. when is it MY TURN to do what I want to do and to be happy? i dont understand why i give and give and give and then i get nothing in return. its that way in almost every situation in my life. i try to do whats right and what will make other people happy even if it makes me feel like i'm murdering myself.
I'M SICK OF DEALING WITH THIS SHIT. i want to just GIVE UP!!!
Maybe it would be best if i just went away.
*no more school
* no more jobs
* no more Cathy
* no more ann
* no more love.
it would all be gone. and no matter how much that would hurt me.. it would be better for the other people.
when is it my turn to be happy? when is it my turn to be free?