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My moms a bitch but thats nothing new. I miss my dad and brother Sean, I don't miss Pat cause hes always here... that makes me happpy thought cause I don't need to miss anyone else. I miss MI alot but theres nothing I can do about that. I went to see Docter J today. I told him about Tuesday! ha ha Lisa knows what Im talkin about woooo buddy! good times. He asked me what I think about my friends that I have now. I told him they were pretty. he he. He asked me how that makes me feel. I told him I wish I was as pretty as them. But ya know what can ya do. We talked about how I feel about myself personaly, I told him I could be skinier and that I wish I was happier the way I used to be. He told me smokin pot makes you less happy I laughed at him, I was like theres no way you can get me to stop smoking so stop trying to tell me all the bad things. He said he would stop. He said if Im not happier by next week then he was gonna have me talk to another doctor that puts people on medication and he said that would help me. my moms not to happy about that but she said she would do anything to get the old me back... whatever thats supposed to mean. I told him a big part of it all is that my moms fucked up a big part of my life that Ill never get back so theres nothing anybody can do about it. He said he was gonna try and help me cause thats what hes there for. I don't understand... but oh well! I need to call my dad... I think thats what Im goin to do... he always makes me feel better. Wooo hoooo!