Wow its been long.......
Well... I just got a new computer because my old one totally crashed and very things gone...yup. Life's the same.... friends today....not the next.. my mind is so all over the place.... the only thing it can be sure about is David.... what a great guy...man if i could just spend the rest of my days with him life would be perfect.. oh man what a party life would be.... maybe a little too much... no that i dont like parties i love 'em but i want to be something... i want to be an actress...not just an actress but a successful one.. nice house able to support myself and if i have a family them too... i want a happy life... full of love and perfectness(if that is even a word) I want perfect... yea i know im never going to get no matter how hard i try no matter what i do..... NOTHING is ever perfect. I'm not going to L.A anymore they found a another girl....yeah, someone who looked more like Mr.Quinn, whatever, i dont even care about that.... it's just i got all worked up about going to my friends who make me sooo happy...we had made plans about meeting and everything.... and i was going to go to Alix's school for a day and see her ....... oh i was so excited to see her! Oh well as they say EVERYTIME....>"THAT'S SHOW BUSINESS!" yea it SUCKSSSSSSSSS ASSSSSS!!!!
i dont know how i deal with it.... i guess i just push it down and suck it up, that's what you have to do, you are not allowed to have the rejection to have an effect on you it has build you up...... what happens when it so much.... what are you going to do then.....you will start to believe it.... you are not good enough......i have to lose weight my moms says... 20 pounds because the camera puts on 10 so it would like im only losing 10.... i guess its alright if i get more jobs.... i guess i dont know what to do with this anymore..... well i love david... nighty night from my new computer named Rocky
Shana D;*
i dont know how i deal with it.... i guess i just push it down and suck it up, that's what you have to do, you are not allowed to have the rejection to have an effect on you it has build you up...... what happens when it so much.... what are you going to do then.....you will start to believe it.... you are not good enough......i have to lose weight my moms says... 20 pounds because the camera puts on 10 so it would like im only losing 10.... i guess its alright if i get more jobs.... i guess i dont know what to do with this anymore..... well i love david... nighty night from my new computer named Rocky
Shana D;*