Hope & Pain (Chapter 7/?)
Title: Hope & Pain
Author: Me^.^
Pairing: Tegoshi/Masuda
Rating: PG-13 (NC-17 for this chap)
Genre: Angst, romance
Summary: Tegoshi lived behind and armour, a smile that prevented him from getting enemies. But eventually, he would let someone inside, smiling genuinely at that special person.
Notes: English is my second language, mistakes will occur even though I try to not make them^^
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”Yuya!”
Tegoshi smiled when he saw his boyfriend standing by the doorway to the office where he worked. The man was waving happily with a huge smile on his face. Tegoshi gazed at his surroundings, none of his seniors were present at the moment, a great opportunity for him to just ditch work for a short while to talk to his boyfriend. He was a lazy person after all, and he didn’t even try to deny it. He hurried towards Masuda, meeting him with a quick hug. “You’re having a break?”
Masuda smiled widely. “Yup. Actually, I’m off early today because some photo shoot were cancelled. Can I come over to you place tonight?”
Tegoshi nodded enthusiastically. “Of course! I’m off in about three hours, do you want the key to my place and wait there for me?”
Masuda smiled sweetly. “That sound good:”
Tegoshi nodded before fishing for the key in his pocket. “There’s not much food in the refrigerator, but just take of the things you find, okay?”
Masuda nodded. Tegoshi scratched his head. “Oh, and the TV is broken, so there probably won’t be much to do…”
Masuda laughed and patted his head. “There’s always things to do at your place. If it weren’t for my total laziness today, I would have cleaned your entire apartment. I don’t get it, how do you always manage to make it so messy? You’re worse than a pig.”
Tegoshi pouted, receiving a laugh from Masuda, that laugh that made his heart flutter. “And by the way, can you take Tinnie for a walk? She hasn’t been out since this morning.”
Masuda grimaced. “But she’s scary…”
Tegoshi laughed and hit Masuda’s arm. “Don’t be such a chicken, Massu! She’s small and cute, and she won’t do a thing to you. Are you a man or a mouse?”
Masuda pouted. “…A mouse.”
Tegoshi laughed. “Yeah, I know you are. But won’t you do it for my sake?” Tegoshi fluttered his eyelashes and pouted his lips slightly, the look he knew Masuda would always fall for. And this time wasn’t an exception. Masuda laughed lightly, defeated. “Okay, okay. Just because I can’t resist those eyes…”
Tegoshi smiled, placing a quick peck on Masuda’s cheek. “Thanks, Massu.”
“You can always give me a reward tonight as a ‘thank you’.”
Tegoshi laughed. “Sure. Bye-bye!”
Masuda smiled before walking away. Tegoshi looked at his back before he disappeared down the stairs, having that warm and happy feeling inside him. He was feeling better now, warmer, happier, more positive towards…everything. Time would heal his wounds, he was sure of it. Even though he wasn’t completely healed yet, he was feeling hell a lot better than before. He was smiling, honestly, looking forward to small details he used to hate. The effect of love? Tegoshi surely thought that was the case, he didn’t have any other explanation to his sudden change. No, it was definitely thanks to Masuda, Tegoshi was entirely sure of that.
There was still days when he cried himself to sleep, or felt his mood drop because of some fond memory he recalled. But every time he felt like that, Masuda noticed, and helped him. He didn’t do anything more than hugging Tegoshi tightly and listen to his complaints, but still, that was all Tegoshi needed in order to feel better. Thanks to lots and lots of hours of crying in Masuda’s arms, Tegoshi slowly began to move on. He still missed his mother badly, that was for sure, but he knew that she wished for his happiness above all. Therefore, for her sake as well as his own, he didn’t want to waste his life anymore, being a ghost with no other goal in life other than surviving. He wanted to be happy, honestly happy. There were still times when he faked a smile just because it was simpler than showing his true feelings, but somehow, Masuda managed to make him smile genuinely whenever they met. Tegoshi wasn’t unhappy anymore, he was happy with his life, happy to have a wonderful person by his side, supporting him and loving him. That was the one thing he had wished for, the one thing he knew would make his life brighter. Now he had it, and he couldn’t be happier.
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There was a nice smell coming from the kitchen when Tegoshi entered his apartment, and he heard that soft humming that belonged to Masuda. It made his entire body feel warm and fluttery. Tegoshi heard small steps coming in his direction, and he bended down, soon feeling Tinnie’s tongue all over his face. He laughed lightly and talked to her in a small high-pitched tone, the same he used to talk to the few babies he had met in his life. “Have Massu been good to you?”
The down just jumped around happily, and Tegoshi smiled. “I guess he has.”
He kissed Tinnie’s fur and buried his nose in it, snuggling close. He heard a little couch and looked up, finding a slightly pouting Masuda in the doorway. “Massu!”
Tegoshi couldn’t help but smile widely. “Did you take good care of my baby?”
Masuda nodded. “I can’t believe that you actually made me do it, I thought I would die…”
Tegoshi laughed. “Stop exaggerating! I know that you’re just jealous at her because she sleeps in my bed every night and takes my underwear off for me.”
Masuda pouted. “See! I can’t like my enemy.”
Tegoshi laughed and stood up, walking towards Masuda and wrapping his arms around his waist. “I’m sure there’s enough space for you in my bed as well.”
Masuda nodded, running his hands up and down Tegoshi’s back slowly. “If not, I’ll kidnap you.”
Tegoshi giggled and snuggled closer. “Sounds great.”
He could hear Masuda sigh happily, placing small kisses on his neck. It tickled a bit, and Tegoshi giggled softly. He felt silly, but that was fine, really. With Masuda, everything was fine. He suddenly felt how Tinnie pushed at his leg and wailed slightly, obviously searching for attention. Masuda broke their embrace and looked at Tegoshi, looking like a sad puppy. “She’s totally started a war against me…”
Tegoshi laughed and ruffled Masuda’s hair. “Then you just have to beat her. You can start by serving me that food that smells so delicious…”
Masuda nodded with a wide smile on his lips and wrapped and arm around Tegoshi’s waist, guiding him towards the kitchen.
It was times like these Tegoshi just wanted to stop the time, freeze the beautiful moment. Times like these, when he sat tucked under Masuda’s arm on the couch, watching his favourite movie. It was just perfect, he couldn’t ask for more. But then again, Masuda was all he would ever wish for, the one thing that made him the happiest in the world. Masuda suddenly shifted position, removing his arm and turning towards Tegoshi. Tegoshi looked at him and tipped his head to the side. Masuda grabbed his hand and squeezed it lightly. “Yuya, you love me, right?”
Tegoshi nodded with a smile on his lips. “Of course I love you. You’re the only one for me in this world.”
Masuda smiled slightly and then looked him deep in the eyes. “Will you do me a favour?”
Tegoshi smiled. “Sure. What do you want me to do?”
Masuda stood up, and walked towards the bedroom, hand still holding onto Tegoshi’s. He sat down on the bed, pulling Tegoshi down to sit on his lap. Tegoshi’s heart skipped a beat when Masuda placed a hand behind his neck and pulled him into a kiss, a kiss that grew deeper and more passionate than Tegoshi had believed it would. Not that he complained, he would never complain about someone actually wanting to do such a thing to him. He sighed into the kiss, wrapping an arm around Masuda’s waist in order to not fall off his lap. Masuda suddenly broke the kiss and looked Tegoshi deep in the eyes with a serious expression. “Will you be mine?”
Tegoshi giggled nervously and couldn’t stop the blush that spread across his face. “I’m all yours already, you know…” He sounded nervous, he could hear it himself.
Masuda smiled and cupped his cheek. “I want you to be mine.”
Tegoshi bit his lip, but couldn’t help the tangling and exciting feeling inside his gut. He still sounded really nervous when speaking. “I…I want to be yours…”
Masuda smiled and kissed him again, and when he started to untack Tegoshi’s shirt from his pants and caressed the skin beneath, Tegoshi decided that he had made a good decision. Masuda’s hands on his bare skin made him melt, made him want more. Masuda lifted him a bit from his lap and put him down on the mattress, crawling after him and placing a wet kiss on his lips as he started to unbutton his shirt. Tegoshi’s breathing quickened when Masuda’s lips wandered over his jawline and then down his neck and collarbone. He gasped when Masuda gave one of his nipples a soft bite, and he could feel how Masuda smiled against his skin. Tegoshi moaned softly when Masuda licked down his stomach and swirled his tongue into his navel. “Massu…” The words came out as a moan, and Masuda looked at him, smiling. “What’s the matter?”
Tegoshi smiled and sat up, pulling at the hem of Masuda’s T-shirt, lifted it over his head when he rose his arms. Tegoshi was amazed by the sight in front of him, he had known that Masuda had quite the body, but it was different to actually see it and not just imagine it. He drew his hands over the warm skin, let them wander over Masuda’s well-trained chest and abs. Masuda smiled and pulled him into a kiss, a soft and sweet one, before lowering him onto the mattress again, not breaking the kiss. Tegoshi felt how a blush spread across his cheeks when Masuda started to unzip his pants, then pulling them down. He kicked a few times until they fell into a mess on the floor. Masuda moved his lips to Tegoshi’s neck, sucking at one spot, leaving clear love-marks. Tegoshi moaned at the sensation, something he found awfully embarrassing. But he forgot all of it when Masuda started to pull down his underwear, begging Tegoshi to lift his hips so he could take them off. Tegoshi did as he was told, and felt how his face turned bright red when Masuda scanned his naked body with his gaze. It was so embarrassing, letting Masuda see and hear it all, all the parts he didn’t have any confidence in.
“Yuya, you’re so beautiful.”
Tegoshi looked at Masuda with a shocked expression. “Have anyone ever told you how beautiful you are?”
Tegoshi shook his head and felt hot tears fall from his eyes, just because it was the first time anyone had told him, the first time someone actually thought something like that about him. Masuda kissed the tears away, smiling. “People around you must have been blind, not recognizing how wonderful you are.”
These words just caused more tears, and they touched Tegoshi deeply. He hadn’t even dreamed about hearing such words, ever. But Masuda seemed to always say the things Tegoshi wanted, and needed the most.
“Yuya…I want you.”
Tegoshi laughed lightly, tapping Masuda’s nose. “Come and take me then, I’m all yours.”
Masuda didn’t seem to hesitate at all, taking the rest of his clothing off, leaving him just as naked as Tegoshi. Tegoshi let his gaze wander over Masuda’s exposed body, his gaze stopping at a certain part a while longer, something that made Masuda’s cheeks darken a bit. Tegoshi looked up, smiling at Masuda. “Massu’s hot.”
Masuda blushed hard, but Tegoshi could see the slight smile on his lips before he leaned forward and caught Tegoshi’s lips in a passionate kiss. Tegoshi moaned into the kiss when Masuda slowly pressed a finger inside of him, gentle and tender. He wrapped his arms around Masuda’s neck as the man started to bite lightly at his neck, at the same time inserting another finger. Tegoshi tossed his head backwards, back arching and panting quickening. Masuda removed his fingers and kissed Tegoshi softly before slowly pushing inside. It hurt, and Tegoshi couldn’t stop the scream that escaped his lips. Masuda whispered softly in his ear as he slowly started to move, tenderly, giving Tegoshi time to get used to the foreign feeling. Tegoshi could hear his own voice whimpering, and he tightened his grip around Masuda’s neck. Masuda let his hand wander over Tegoshi’s inner tight, reaching his most intimate parts, making Tegoshi moan when touching him between his legs.
Tegoshi bucked his hips, finally getting used to Masuda being inside of him. “Massu, faster…” He felt utterly embarrassed when he managed to form the words, embarrassed just because he was begging. Masuda obeyed, picking up his speed, making Tegoshi forget about everything but the man he loved most in the entire world. He lost it all, his pants and moans mixed with Masuda’s as they grew into one. Tegoshi saw white when Masuda found that secret spot within him, and the sensation made him moan loudly. Masuda hit the spot again and again, and Tegoshi screamed when he came, the utter pleasure sending a shiver through his body. He fell back on the mattress, his body felt totally exhausted, and he just lay there, feeling Masuda thrusting a few times more before coming inside him, wet and hot. Masuda collapsed by his side, pulling him closer with his last powers. Tegoshi closed his eyes and enjoyed how Masuda fingered at his face, removing damp bangs from his forehead. “I think I’ve changed my opinion about you.”
Tegoshi’s eyes flew open, and he looked at Masuda, almost scared. Masuda just kissed his nose and laughed lightly. “I use to think that you were just purely cute, but you surely can be hot as well.”
Tegoshi smiled, cheeks becoming hot. “Massu too.”
Masuda smiled. “I think you’re the first one that loves me because of my personality, not my looks.”
Tegoshi eyed Masuda. “What do you mean?”
Masuda grabbed Tegoshi’s hand. “All people who tells me they love me just loves me because of my looks or because I’m famous. But you didn’t judge me just because of my appearance, and that makes me so happy.”
Tegoshi snuggled closer and placed a kiss on Masuda’s collarbone. “That’s because your personality is even more beautiful than your face. I love your face too, of course, because it’s a part of my beloved Massu.”
Masuda embraced Tegoshi tightly, burying his nose on his hair. “I love you so much.”
Tegoshi closed his eyes and smiled against Masuda’s skin. “Me too. I just need Massu to be happy.”
Masuda loosened his grip and looked Tegoshi in the eyes. “You are different. You love me, honestly, and get so happy when I do things for you. You’re such a wonderful person.”
Tegoshi’s eyes welled up, and he hugged Masuda tightly. “You’re different too. You’re the only one who doesn’t think I’m a useless bother.”
Masuda drew a hand down Tegoshi’s spine. “That’s because you’re not.”
Tegoshi smiled. “Thanks, Massu. For seeing through my shell and still loving me.”
Masuda placed a kiss on his hair. “I can only say the same.”
Tegoshi giggled softly. “Massu, I’m tired.”
“Then sleep.”
“Will you hold me?”
“I will.”
Tegoshi snuggled closer and closed his eyes, feeling how Masuda placed the blanket over them.
“Goodnight, Massu.”
“Goodnight.”
Tegoshi giggled and placed a lazy kiss on Masuda’s lips. “I love you.”
Masuda stroke his cheek and held him close. “I love you too.”
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And that’s the promised FLUFF! And some porn as well…I hope it didn’t fail XD
I felt totally off and uninspired when writing this, but I wanted to be able to post it before going to bed, and I managed to finish it! I don’t like it too much though…maybe because I’m totally not in a fluffy mode and don’t have any confidence about this and everything else at the moment.
But I hope it’s not TOO fail ^.^
Thanks for reading ^.^ Comments are loved <3