Voice (chapter 5/?)
Title: Voice (chapter 5)
Author: Me^^
Pairing: Tegoshi/Masuda
Rating: PG
Genre: Fluff, romance
Summary: Masuda is living a quite normal and boring life, but when the boy Tegoshi Yuya moves in with him, he’ll discover strong and foreign feelings that don’t need to be explained by words.
Comments: English is my second language, I’m doing my best to not make mistakes^^
Comments are always loved ~<333
Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4
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Masuda felt confused. Confused, but unbelievably happy. This was the first time he actually thought about it, but he really was in love with Tegoshi. There was no doubt about it, considering his racing heart and emotions at the moment. Tegoshi was now looking at him, that sweet and honest smile on his lips. Masuda felt how his cheeks took a deep shade of pink and he kissed Tegoshi again to hide his embarrassment. Tegoshi didn’t seem to complain, he wrapped his arms around Masuda’s waist and deepened the kiss, something that made Masuda’s heart beat even faster. He knew deep inside that this was something he shouldn’t do, something he shouldn’t like. It didn’t matter though, moral couldn’t stop his rushing emotions that definitely didn’t want to stop, but continue. Tegoshi suddenly broke the kiss, looking a bit apologetic. He wrote something at his notepad and showed it to Masuda, cheeks burning. I love you.
Masuda smiled widely and threw his arms around the boy, held him tightly. “I love you too” he whispered softly in Tegoshi’s ear. He loosened his grip around the boy’s waist, and Tegoshi just stared at him, eyes wide. Masuda smiled and caressed his cheek lightly. “I’m totally serious. I love you.”
Tears started to fall from Tegoshi’s eyes, and he wiped them away while he smiled brightly. He threw his arms around Masuda’s neck and kissed him again, as if he wanted to say ‘I love you’ back, without using words. Masuda wrapped his arms around Tegoshi’s waist and started to caress his back softly, enjoying the moment to the fullest. Tegoshi broke the kiss and looked at Masuda with the big eyes filled with sadness. Masuda patted his head. “What’s wrong?”
Tegoshi wrote on his notepad and eyed Masuda with a worried expression while he read it. Isn’t it bothering you? That I can’t say ‘I love you’. How can you trust my feelings then?
Masuda shook his head and embraced the boy tightly, spoke in a low voice next to his ear. “Words aren’t trustworthy, but feelings are. I can see it on you that you want to say these words to me, and that’s what important. It doesn’t matter if you can’t tell me, what makes me happy is the way you feel, not to actually hear these words.”
Tegoshi leaned his cheek on Masuda’s shoulder and tightened his grip around his waist. Masuda felt stupid for denying his feelings towards the boy. He was sure now, really. He was in love with Tegoshi, and he didn’t want to ever give him up.
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Masuda smiled when he woke up, feeling that more or less familiar feeling of a warmth and heaviness on his stomach and chest. Masuda had gotten used to Tegoshi preferring to sleep on top of him instead of his own bed, especially if Masuda happened to take a nap. He definitely didn’t have anything against it though, Tegoshi had almost moved from his own room to Masuda’s since they had gotten home from Tegoshi’s parents a few weeks ago. Exchanging hugs and kisses had become quite normal by now, even though Masuda wanted to hide it from Koyama for the reason that he didn’t even want to imagine how much he would tease him about it. Koyama was barely ever at their apartment anyway, and both Masuda and Tegoshi were just waiting for him to tell them that he was going to move in with Shige.
Masuda smiled when he looked at the relaxed boy who where sleeping on top of him. He started to caress the boy’s hair softly and closed his eyes as well. Tegoshi always managed to make him feel at ease, even if it just was by something this simple. Masuda smiled when he felt soft lips meeting his own shortly, before pulling away. Masuda opened his eyes and smiled at Tegoshi, whose face was barely and inch away. “Good morning. Or good evening, actually.”
Tegoshi smiled and pecked Masuda’s lips before resting his head on his chest again. Masuda laughed quietly. “Don’t you have to study?”
Tegoshi sat up and pouted. Masuda laughed and touched his hand, caressed it lightly. Tegoshi looked at him, eyes full of love, shining in a special way. Masuda sat up and leaned their foreheads together. “I have some work to do at home today, okay? But Koyama won’t be home tonight, so we’re all alone. Let’s do something nice, right?”
Tegoshi nodded and kissed him lightly before going to his room, leaving Masuda with a wide smile on his lips.
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Masuda really felt unbelievably happy at the moment, and it was all thanks to Tegoshi. Masuda realized that his life had been quite boring before he met the boy, but it was full of colours now, full of love. It had been a nice evening, just as Masuda had predicted. They had just been sitting on the sofa and watched a movie, but that was more than enough. Masuda honestly was happy just by having Tegoshi by his side, it was enough to make him feel at ease. Just to lie on his bed and wait for Tegoshi made him feel warm inside as well, just to know that he was coming made him feel warm and fluttery.
A smile appeared on Masuda’s face when he saw Tegoshi in the doorway, looking adorable as usual with his hair messy and a sleepy look on his face. He yawned while walking towards the bed and lay down beside Masuda, sighing happily when Masuda wrapped an arm around him. Masuda kissed Tegoshi’s hair and pulled him closer, whispering sweet words in his ear. He smiled when Tegoshi’s breath became slower, he had already fallen asleep. Masuda just law there for a long while, watching the sleeping boy, before he got up to take a glass of water in the kitchen. He sat down on a chair by the kitchen table and sipped at the water, thinking a lot about how things had changed the past few weeks. He really wanted to be in a serious relation with Tegoshi, it was something they hadn’t discussed yet, but Masuda thought that the chances was good, they both seemed to be in love with the other after all. He leaned back a bit and smiled when he thought of Tegoshi’s face, of his smile. He suddenly felt a hand on his shoulder, and could distinguish Tegoshi’s face in the darkness. The boy tipped his head to the side with a questioning look on his face. Masuda smiled. “I just wanted some water, I’ll come back now.”
Tegoshi smiled and grabbed Masuda’s hand while they walked back to the bedroom. When they entered, Masuda took his shirt of, and he noticed how Tegoshi glanced at his bare torso, something that made him feel a bit embarrassed. He laughed nervously. “It’s warm.”
Tegoshi smiled sweetly and rose up, wrapped his arms around Masuda’s waist, started to caress Masuda’s exposed back with his hands, and at the same time placing a deep kiss on his lips. Masuda sighed into it, and let his own hands wander up the boy’s back, underneath his shirt. He pushed Tegoshi backwards, crawled after him when he fell back on the mattress. Masuda started to remove clothing from Tegoshi’s body, kissed the bare skin underneath as it became exposed. Tegoshi’s breath quickened when Masuda’s hand made their way up his inner tight, close to his most intimate parts. Tegoshi started to tug down Masuda’s pants as well, and Masuda couldn’t help but smile at his eagerness. He let Tegoshi pull them down and kicked them to the ground while he kissed him again, deep and passionately, pushing a finger inside him. Tegoshi threw his head back and dug his nails into Masuda’s arms. Masuda kissed his neck as he inserted another finger, making Tegoshi’s breathing quicken even more. Masuda removed his fingers and smiled at the boy under him, kissed his temple and whispered ‘I love you’ to him. Tegoshi mouthed the same thing back and smiled before he pulled Masuda’s neck down to meet him in a kiss. Masuda felt how Tegoshi dug his nails deep into his back when he pushed inside and sucked at Tegoshi’s neck to distract him from the pain. His heart ached when he saw Tegoshi’s painful expression, eyes tightly closed and tears falling down his cheeks. He kissed Tegoshi’s cheek. “Are you okay?”
Tegoshi opened his eyes and nodded slightly. Masuda kissed away some tears from his cheeks. “It’ll feel better.”
Tegoshi closed his eyes again as Masuda started to move inside him, trying to keep him distracted from the pain by stroking him between his legs and kissing his neck. He knew that Tegoshi was close when his breathe became even faster and uneven, and he dug his nails deep in Masuda’s shoulders, breaking skin as he fell back on the pillows when he came. Masuda thrusted a few more times to finish himself before he collapsed on top of Tegoshi, trying to get his breathing back to normal. When they had somehow returned from their heights, Masuda went to get a towel to clean them off with before he curled up beside Tegoshi under the blanket. Tegoshi snuggled close and wrapped his arms around Masuda’s waist. Masuda stroke Tegoshi’s cheek lightly and inhaled his sweet smell. “I love you so much. I don’t want to ever lose you.”
Tegoshi responded by placing soft kisses on Masuda’s collarbone. Masuda smiled. “You too?”
Tegoshi nodded, and Masuda could feel him smile against his bare skin. “That’s all I need to know.”
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Masuda didn’t think that he could ever get any happier when he woke up with Tegoshi next to him, still clinging tightly to Masuda’s waist. Masuda just watched the boy, let his fingers wander over his face and hair. He got startled when he heard the door open, and turned around just to see Koyama stand in the doorway. Koyama’s eyes widened by the scene in front of him, and he closed the door quickly. “What…what have you been doing?”
Masuda blushed a bit, but couldn’t hide the smile that was escaping his lips. Koyama’s expression turned sad for some reason, and he looked down. “There’s someone here to see Tegoshi.”
Masuda nodded and shook Tegoshi gently to wake him up. The boy sat up and rubbed his eyes. Masuda laughed lightly and met his lips with a kiss. “There’s someone here to see you.”
Tegoshi tipped his head to the side with a curious look before he started to get himself dressed. Masuda did the same, and when they were both dressed they followed Koyama to the living room. There was a girl sitting on the couch, a girl Masuda didn’t recognize seeing before.
“Yuya?” The girl rose and moved quickly towards Tegoshi. Masuda moved his gaze to Tegoshi, his mouth was wide open with surprise, and Masuda couldn’t really figure out if the boy was feeling happy or sad at the moment. The girl was now standing right in front of Tegoshi, looking him in the eyes. “Yuya, I’ve missed you so much…It was a mistake to break up with you, I realize that now…”
Masuda’s heart stopped beating for a second. Was this Tegoshi’s ex-girlfriend? If that was the case…Masuda’s heart broke just by the thought. He looked at Tegoshi, whose eyes were wet from tears.
“Yuya, can’t we be happy again? I will never leave you again, I promise.” The girl embraced Tegoshi tightly, tears falling down her cheeks, and Masuda didn’t want to look when Tegoshi wrapped his arms around her waist as well, holding her tightly. He felt the tears burn inside and turned around to leave the room. When he had shut the door to his bedroom, he sat down and leaned towards it, tears making their way down his cheeks. It was quite hopeless wasn’t it? Why in the world would Tegoshi choose him when the girl he had been in love with for years, and probably still were in love with, wanted him back? Masuda pulled his knees to his chest and leaned his forehead against them. He didn’t even try to stop the tears that fell from his eyes. It really felt like his heart was breaking at that moment.
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Sorry for the delay >_< I have a lot going on in school right now and haven’t been able to write at all…I shouldn’t have written this either actually, because I have a work to do about Shakespeare that’s going to be finished tomorrow…but I wanted to write on this instead XD
And second…sorry about the lame chap >_< I don’t like it at all, to be honest. Before school started to keep me busy I had a great flow in my writing, but it feels like I somehow lost it ;_____;
Anyway, I hope you’ll like the chap^^ Thanks for reading, comments are love :DDD<3333