21 Days
So I havn't posted in a month, alot has changed and I can honestly sit here and say I am a fully changing woman.
As of december 1st I took the last of my drug of choice and checked myself into fairview detox center and got myself clean. Followed my the recommandations of staff and doctors I went into the rehab center on the next few floors up. I am for the most part happy and healthy (execpt this rediclus headache which wont go away).
Second day into the rehab part Eric called me and asked if it would be ok if he brought the other woman home to our house for christmas, in which I relpied "I love you and care for you deeply. I only want you to be happy Eric and if this is what you want and will make you happy then so be it, but I will not sit here and pretend it does not hurt me and I will be moving after my treatment is finished." Well needless to say- I am going home on pass for christmas and she is not. I believe with therapy and much faith, prayer, and strength we will too over come this. If not I know at this time we will always be friends, but I am a strong woman who is able to stand on her own two feet and over come anything thrown my way with the support of my wonderful friends and family.
Here on my birthday I am just so very gratful for 23 days of soberity, being alive after almost going into heart failure (which my family is still to this day not fully aware of), and having this second chance to be me again.
Well I am not suppose to be using this computer but wanted to reach out....I miss all of you and hope to be home soon, my graduation date is set for the 29th.
Love
me
As of december 1st I took the last of my drug of choice and checked myself into fairview detox center and got myself clean. Followed my the recommandations of staff and doctors I went into the rehab center on the next few floors up. I am for the most part happy and healthy (execpt this rediclus headache which wont go away).
Second day into the rehab part Eric called me and asked if it would be ok if he brought the other woman home to our house for christmas, in which I relpied "I love you and care for you deeply. I only want you to be happy Eric and if this is what you want and will make you happy then so be it, but I will not sit here and pretend it does not hurt me and I will be moving after my treatment is finished." Well needless to say- I am going home on pass for christmas and she is not. I believe with therapy and much faith, prayer, and strength we will too over come this. If not I know at this time we will always be friends, but I am a strong woman who is able to stand on her own two feet and over come anything thrown my way with the support of my wonderful friends and family.
Here on my birthday I am just so very gratful for 23 days of soberity, being alive after almost going into heart failure (which my family is still to this day not fully aware of), and having this second chance to be me again.
Well I am not suppose to be using this computer but wanted to reach out....I miss all of you and hope to be home soon, my graduation date is set for the 29th.
Love
me