I should be alseep
I am havig a bad case of isomina......I am sure it because of tomorrow.
I go in for my fincial aid appointment, I am really excited. I finally feel like I am getting things on track. This has been something long awaited, but I don't think I was perpared until now. I havnt felt so drivin in a very long time.
I got a free pass to a gym and have been using it almost every other day- the guy at he gym commented to me today that I was dedicated, I have to admit that made me feel good; I havn't heard those words in a long time either. not to metion it has boosted my energy almost 100%.
I am finding more paciatce (sp) with Bella, she is still having her meltdowns but they are becoming eaiser to calm down. She is having a tough time with the trasition to "big girl" and I totally can understand how that feels. Wanting to do all the big kid things without holding the responcablity- not suprising since both of her parents struggle with the same issues. I just hate to see her so sad and frustrated. I wish I could hold her in my arms like when she was alittle baby, and take all that away for her- but it is what it is.
Things with Eric have even gotten seemly alot better. He said he would be open to the couples counsiling, which in itself has somehow taken alot of preussure off of us it seems. Knowing that we are going to give it our all to make things work seems to give me, I know for sure some security and I think for him too. I am staying clean, and working on my goals is also been a postive thing for us. He is now showing desire to go back to school and follow/figure out his goals, and nothing more could make me happy for him- he is such a bright and intellligent man; it something I have always admire about him an to see him flurish in this would be great.
So, besides working a new job- that I really seem to enjoy; doing inventory at stores for RGIS nothing new is going on and I think I am going to go lay down before I need to be up in 4 hours. wooohooo for me!
I go in for my fincial aid appointment, I am really excited. I finally feel like I am getting things on track. This has been something long awaited, but I don't think I was perpared until now. I havnt felt so drivin in a very long time.
I got a free pass to a gym and have been using it almost every other day- the guy at he gym commented to me today that I was dedicated, I have to admit that made me feel good; I havn't heard those words in a long time either. not to metion it has boosted my energy almost 100%.
I am finding more paciatce (sp) with Bella, she is still having her meltdowns but they are becoming eaiser to calm down. She is having a tough time with the trasition to "big girl" and I totally can understand how that feels. Wanting to do all the big kid things without holding the responcablity- not suprising since both of her parents struggle with the same issues. I just hate to see her so sad and frustrated. I wish I could hold her in my arms like when she was alittle baby, and take all that away for her- but it is what it is.
Things with Eric have even gotten seemly alot better. He said he would be open to the couples counsiling, which in itself has somehow taken alot of preussure off of us it seems. Knowing that we are going to give it our all to make things work seems to give me, I know for sure some security and I think for him too. I am staying clean, and working on my goals is also been a postive thing for us. He is now showing desire to go back to school and follow/figure out his goals, and nothing more could make me happy for him- he is such a bright and intellligent man; it something I have always admire about him an to see him flurish in this would be great.
So, besides working a new job- that I really seem to enjoy; doing inventory at stores for RGIS nothing new is going on and I think I am going to go lay down before I need to be up in 4 hours. wooohooo for me!