My Creative Juices Don't Flow No Moe.............

[momof3bbp]

So yeah, I thought my Twitter handle was appropriate, pretty and creative. Well, after he put it like that I just could find the inspiration to Tweet anymore. As for my emails, bbp990103@gmail.com was my children's initials and birth years. Well, I lost access to that one which used to be my personal email especially when writing to them. Apparently, after much searching on my part the password I wrote down is not correct according to Google. Oh well, I guess since it had other failed attempts at businesses in it. crystal_jade@hotmail.com, I don't have access either because I can't remember the password. I thought that one was especially pretty and it represented 2 pieces of jewelry. It was used for surveys and junk mail. I thought I could make money doing those but they never really paid and most were not accessible. Such disappointments! More disappointments! I did not have the finances to really keep those businesses going if they were legit and well you just heard about the surveys. Just to much drama and unresolved trauma. My creative juices don't flow anymore and what can I write about going to work and coming home. Besides, it seemed everything I started everyone else suddenly wanted a part of and that wasn't fun anymore as it felt like competition and dumbing down. Well, I probably should go to bed at this point but likely will not.

I now spend my downtime reading, watching TV, and listening to music. I guess I'm ok with that because I have to be. I have fewer friends but all we really have in common is that we were all at ABL together and, we just lost Ms. Hilda. We try to get together and go eat once in a while. This is why I am grateful for my job at Families Helping Families of Acadiana. It affords me opportunities that I did not have withou any income but SSI. They are different though. But I don't have to feel like I'm a burden or dependent to anybody.