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Because I feel like it... Happy things for me recently, my ten most happy... X3 Not in any order.
1. Current obsession with the "How to be a..." Youtube videos sent to me by Minka. My GODS those things are funny. It starts with how to be a Ninja, then moves to Gangster and then goes to Emo. The Emo one is hillarious... they all are, thank you very much. Thank Minka for my new obsession with these damn videos. X3
2. The song BLOW by Atreyu. It just reminds me of a lot of people and experiences that I`ve gone through, both here and things that have been happening back in the US. If you haven`t heard it, I highly recomend it. April and I want to go out and by the new CD, special edition, since we found it here for really cheap. That one song though, is AMAZING. I hope you all like it.
3. My new host family. I have met so many amazing people since I have been here, but honestly, if I had had Funakawa-san as my host family since the beginning of me being here, I would have been begging them not to take me home. They actually give a shit about me, and love me. When I am upset, they can tell and try to do things to make me smile and make me happy. They take me places, buy me things and treat me like there real daughter. I love it there and I wish I didn`t have to leave so soon because I have a feeling I would have done a lot more traveling and a lot more things with this family then I had ever done in the beginning.
4. April. I love this girl to death. You know those people, you meet in your life that just come in and make you cheery? The people who just... tend to brighten up your day? That is April. She is a beautiful person, inside and out, though she doesn`t believe she is. She is Christian, but not to the point where you want to smack her for it, hell, she even went out and bought a cocktail with me when we went to Molly Malones the other night. She respects how I feel about Christianity, doesn`t try to preach and we run around Hiroshima having an amazing time.
5. Maylyn. She is just my baby and I don`t know what I`m going to do when she is in Manila and I am stuck in the states. I want to fly her to meet you all, but... Gods, it`s so expensive for her and she can`t really afford it. I want to work so hard to get here there, because she has been my BEST friend in Japan. We`re so close, and I love her so much. She cares about me more then I think anyone even realizes, more then I think I even realize. Which makes me feel so bad, because I don`t know how to show her how much I love her before I leave.
6. Fanfictions. Random as this is, they have really been making my day recently. Three of my favorite authors have started posting sequals, drabbles and things related to there original stories or related to stories that are to come or maybe coming in the future. Life_Giver, Webspawn, and of course, Die face <3 I can`t wait to read these things that are to come and give me something to do with my life when Iget home. X3 Plus, the fact I have started writing again and have a writers journal now.
fairybl00dif anyone is interested. So far, I think I only have one or two things posted there, but... you`re welcome to view if you want.
7. The fact I am coming home in like... almost a month. a little more then 30 days and I will finally be home. Back with my family, back to my school. Back to my friends (some of them anyways.) and just... back to my life. However, I think coming home will be really hard. I have to practically build a whole new lifer again because things have... quiet obviously changed and for some of you, I`m not quiet sure for the better. I knew change would happen, but I also never expected the massive... change that some of you have gone through. All of you have touched my life in some way, shape or form, whether we are close when I get home or not. However, the one`s I know I will continue to be close to, continue to be loved by... Just THINK less then 30 days. Some of you may think, why is this happy? Yet, in a way it is... I am happy to get a frech beginning at life. A fresh chance to meet and talk to new people, learn to love in a differnet way and rid myself of all the negitivity that has been building up over the years.
8. My family. They always make me happy. The fact I get to see them, touch them go out to Starbucks with my little sister again. Threaten her boyfriend, watch Julie drive me around until I can get my lisence changed, (Britt face, I would love you. You too Die... take me to the DMV?) and then being able to talk to them face to face again. I haven`t seen my parents faces in 9 months... by the time I get home, it will have been exactly 10 months (11 months?) since I left home and saw my parents. I can`t wait for that moment, and that keeps me happy.
9. Growing. I feel like I`ve grown so much since I came here. I feel as though I have matured and grown into a new person. I left a child, someone who wasn`t really confident with herself, her emotions her feelings... I come home someone who knows what she wants and how she intends on getting. I come home willing to fight back and not deal with anyone`s shit anymore. What battles to pick and which ones to just leave alone. I`ve changed drastically, and I think everyone agrees that it has been for the better. I`ve discovered so much about myself being here, and I`ve had to deal with so many things without someone there to hold me up. (Well, besides Maylyn, but I think most of you know what I mean by that.) I still love to be the baby, I would still love to occasionally be everyone`s little Min or little Momo, but... I`ve also grown a lot. You all will see that when I come home.
10. GRADUATION. Holy SHIT I`m a senior! I get to graduate bloody high school, cry my eyes out and wait until my 10 year runion to see who turned into the supermodels and who grew fat and ugly. Who married who and who is going to spike the punch. It`s something I have imagined since I was a lilttle kid, my high school graduation with my relatives coming to see me, sending me well wishes. The big parties and the sad evenings where you talk to the people who may simply fall out of your life. It`s such a scary thing, but it`s an... excited scary, you know? The fact I actually worked hard enough and did well enough to graduate. That I can now be flung out into the real world where I live in a dorm, and work on a masters so I can bloody teach. My dream... it`s so surreal and I can`t wait.
OH DIE.
I have to ask you a question, later, ne?
1. Current obsession with the "How to be a..." Youtube videos sent to me by Minka. My GODS those things are funny. It starts with how to be a Ninja, then moves to Gangster and then goes to Emo. The Emo one is hillarious... they all are, thank you very much. Thank Minka for my new obsession with these damn videos. X3
2. The song BLOW by Atreyu. It just reminds me of a lot of people and experiences that I`ve gone through, both here and things that have been happening back in the US. If you haven`t heard it, I highly recomend it. April and I want to go out and by the new CD, special edition, since we found it here for really cheap. That one song though, is AMAZING. I hope you all like it.
3. My new host family. I have met so many amazing people since I have been here, but honestly, if I had had Funakawa-san as my host family since the beginning of me being here, I would have been begging them not to take me home. They actually give a shit about me, and love me. When I am upset, they can tell and try to do things to make me smile and make me happy. They take me places, buy me things and treat me like there real daughter. I love it there and I wish I didn`t have to leave so soon because I have a feeling I would have done a lot more traveling and a lot more things with this family then I had ever done in the beginning.
4. April. I love this girl to death. You know those people, you meet in your life that just come in and make you cheery? The people who just... tend to brighten up your day? That is April. She is a beautiful person, inside and out, though she doesn`t believe she is. She is Christian, but not to the point where you want to smack her for it, hell, she even went out and bought a cocktail with me when we went to Molly Malones the other night. She respects how I feel about Christianity, doesn`t try to preach and we run around Hiroshima having an amazing time.
5. Maylyn. She is just my baby and I don`t know what I`m going to do when she is in Manila and I am stuck in the states. I want to fly her to meet you all, but... Gods, it`s so expensive for her and she can`t really afford it. I want to work so hard to get here there, because she has been my BEST friend in Japan. We`re so close, and I love her so much. She cares about me more then I think anyone even realizes, more then I think I even realize. Which makes me feel so bad, because I don`t know how to show her how much I love her before I leave.
6. Fanfictions. Random as this is, they have really been making my day recently. Three of my favorite authors have started posting sequals, drabbles and things related to there original stories or related to stories that are to come or maybe coming in the future. Life_Giver, Webspawn, and of course, Die face <3 I can`t wait to read these things that are to come and give me something to do with my life when Iget home. X3 Plus, the fact I have started writing again and have a writers journal now.
fairybl00dif anyone is interested. So far, I think I only have one or two things posted there, but... you`re welcome to view if you want.
7. The fact I am coming home in like... almost a month. a little more then 30 days and I will finally be home. Back with my family, back to my school. Back to my friends (some of them anyways.) and just... back to my life. However, I think coming home will be really hard. I have to practically build a whole new lifer again because things have... quiet obviously changed and for some of you, I`m not quiet sure for the better. I knew change would happen, but I also never expected the massive... change that some of you have gone through. All of you have touched my life in some way, shape or form, whether we are close when I get home or not. However, the one`s I know I will continue to be close to, continue to be loved by... Just THINK less then 30 days. Some of you may think, why is this happy? Yet, in a way it is... I am happy to get a frech beginning at life. A fresh chance to meet and talk to new people, learn to love in a differnet way and rid myself of all the negitivity that has been building up over the years.
8. My family. They always make me happy. The fact I get to see them, touch them go out to Starbucks with my little sister again. Threaten her boyfriend, watch Julie drive me around until I can get my lisence changed, (Britt face, I would love you. You too Die... take me to the DMV?) and then being able to talk to them face to face again. I haven`t seen my parents faces in 9 months... by the time I get home, it will have been exactly 10 months (11 months?) since I left home and saw my parents. I can`t wait for that moment, and that keeps me happy.
9. Growing. I feel like I`ve grown so much since I came here. I feel as though I have matured and grown into a new person. I left a child, someone who wasn`t really confident with herself, her emotions her feelings... I come home someone who knows what she wants and how she intends on getting. I come home willing to fight back and not deal with anyone`s shit anymore. What battles to pick and which ones to just leave alone. I`ve changed drastically, and I think everyone agrees that it has been for the better. I`ve discovered so much about myself being here, and I`ve had to deal with so many things without someone there to hold me up. (Well, besides Maylyn, but I think most of you know what I mean by that.) I still love to be the baby, I would still love to occasionally be everyone`s little Min or little Momo, but... I`ve also grown a lot. You all will see that when I come home.
10. GRADUATION. Holy SHIT I`m a senior! I get to graduate bloody high school, cry my eyes out and wait until my 10 year runion to see who turned into the supermodels and who grew fat and ugly. Who married who and who is going to spike the punch. It`s something I have imagined since I was a lilttle kid, my high school graduation with my relatives coming to see me, sending me well wishes. The big parties and the sad evenings where you talk to the people who may simply fall out of your life. It`s such a scary thing, but it`s an... excited scary, you know? The fact I actually worked hard enough and did well enough to graduate. That I can now be flung out into the real world where I live in a dorm, and work on a masters so I can bloody teach. My dream... it`s so surreal and I can`t wait.
OH DIE.
I have to ask you a question, later, ne?