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Okay, so I am a bad friend. I have come to realize this in recent days. I am so wrapped up in my own shit, that I haven't taken the time I should to be a really good friend to many people I really do care bout. So, I am a bad friend.
On the subject, I have a "friend" who I am beginning to question. Which is what, I guess, got me to looking at my own behavior. She didn't call me or stop by to see how I was doing for five months - five months when she drives by my house every day - and when she did see me - it was all about her - not one question of hey, how is it going. Now she knows my situation, she knows that that I am under a lot of stress. But did she even ask - no. Probably because she was afraid I would answer honestly and she didn't want to know how bad a friend she was to me.
So, let me say this. I have been a bad friend, and I am truly sorry.
To the friends who have been here for me let me say this; you will never know how much you mean to me. And not because I don't try to tell you, but because there aren't words in the English language that can express how I feel about you other than to say that I love you. (which is a very sucky ambiguous phrase and just doesn't do the trick.) Just being there in my life helps.
Now if I can just survive the next seven or eight weeks, I promise to try harder to be a better friend...
On the subject, I have a "friend" who I am beginning to question. Which is what, I guess, got me to looking at my own behavior. She didn't call me or stop by to see how I was doing for five months - five months when she drives by my house every day - and when she did see me - it was all about her - not one question of hey, how is it going. Now she knows my situation, she knows that that I am under a lot of stress. But did she even ask - no. Probably because she was afraid I would answer honestly and she didn't want to know how bad a friend she was to me.
So, let me say this. I have been a bad friend, and I am truly sorry.
To the friends who have been here for me let me say this; you will never know how much you mean to me. And not because I don't try to tell you, but because there aren't words in the English language that can express how I feel about you other than to say that I love you. (which is a very sucky ambiguous phrase and just doesn't do the trick.) Just being there in my life helps.
Now if I can just survive the next seven or eight weeks, I promise to try harder to be a better friend...