I repeat myself when under stress, I repeat myself when under stress.....
There were a few of you who told me you'd make sure I would be called & informed about the events to pay our respects to Jay & NONE OF YOU TOLD ME A GODDAMN THING! How shitty! Maybe it doesn't matter to you people, but I've been friends with him for a long time, too! Also, I went out & got a bunch of pictures I've taken of him over the last 5 years copied to hand out to those of you who introduced me to Jay & hopefully give some to his mom, I know she'd like these.
He was a really good guy & I'll really miss him. When I last talked to him in November we were trying to figure out a way to get him to my house to meet my daughter...If only I had a car!!! I wish I'd been "allowed" to participate in saying goodbye. Shows me which of you from that group are real friends (I only mean those of you who told me you'd inform me of this info). I'm glad other people were able to be there, though. Wherever he is, he's gotta know he was very loved.
Losing him has gotten Brian to work towards getting insurance so he can take better care of his diabetes. He never met him, but seeing mine and Carmen's and James reaction to losing another diabetic friend scared him. GOOD. He needs to be around to see Natalie grow up, and stand with me on the porch with a shot gun when her boyfriends bring her home late.
Adrianne fucks me yet again. Now Ameritech is garnishing my tax return to pay for the $1063 phone bill she racked up on me back in 2001. I know that since the phone was in my name I'm responsible, it just sucks. I know I never got anyone to call me daily collect from Cincinnatti & talk for 4 hours. I know I owe this money, I just was paying off more important things to me right now, like my rent. It's a damn good thing she's not around right now.
Still trying to pay for our wedding, harder now since the tax return thing. Luckily none of my utilities are behind so they are small bills. Paying for everything a little at a time. Bought an ugly veil that looked nice in the store..returning it very soon. Favors are done, flowers are done. Got my dress, hopefully the bridesmaids get theirs. Need to pay pay pay pay. As of right now, there will be no DJ, photographer, alcohol (not that there was to be much to begin with), centerpieces, ring for Brian, tuxes, dress for Natalie, invitations, jewelry. NO MONEY!!!! Working on it, working on it, working on it. Gotta calm down.
Work is really starting to suck. I have no patience for 4 year olds. I was much better with school age kids. My schedule has been utterly shitty, the more I ask about not getting off at 8pm, the more I get stuck doing it (my coming schedule is much better, thank you!!!!!!). I don't like working until 8 because Natalie's bedtime is 9. We get home around 8:45 since I work all the way in Farmington Hills (I live in Westland) and since there's too much chaos here for her to take a nap, she sleeps all the way home! Then she gets her bottle and goes to bed?! This sucks! It's not good for her, it totally screws her up. Brian comes and gets her when he can but we can't afford that much gas for him to come here all the time. I'm not going to try and make her schedule change having her go to bed at 10 or later, she's the one who put herself on this schedule, it's worked for her since she was about 4 months old! My life doesn't revolve around my job, it revolves around Natalie. Need to find a job in the afternoons out in my area so that I can be home with her in the daytime, and go to work after Brian gets home.
CJ, lemme know about your car...been a hard week, haven't really talked to anyone on the phone. Whenever you need it back, please call me!
Time to go, need to buy baby wipes and baby toothpaste...and pay bills.. wah...hoo...
I'll try to update again soon... puter at home still messed up. James seems to be the only one who figured out what's wrong..something about IP addresses and the word 'stack' I think..maybe I just need a new 2005 ultra spiffy cufflink bog fruit cheeto chip card.
Later taters.
Pat, Carmen said you were going to call me about the pictures? Please feel free, just not right now, cuz i'm at the Y!
He was a really good guy & I'll really miss him. When I last talked to him in November we were trying to figure out a way to get him to my house to meet my daughter...If only I had a car!!! I wish I'd been "allowed" to participate in saying goodbye. Shows me which of you from that group are real friends (I only mean those of you who told me you'd inform me of this info). I'm glad other people were able to be there, though. Wherever he is, he's gotta know he was very loved.
Losing him has gotten Brian to work towards getting insurance so he can take better care of his diabetes. He never met him, but seeing mine and Carmen's and James reaction to losing another diabetic friend scared him. GOOD. He needs to be around to see Natalie grow up, and stand with me on the porch with a shot gun when her boyfriends bring her home late.
Adrianne fucks me yet again. Now Ameritech is garnishing my tax return to pay for the $1063 phone bill she racked up on me back in 2001. I know that since the phone was in my name I'm responsible, it just sucks. I know I never got anyone to call me daily collect from Cincinnatti & talk for 4 hours. I know I owe this money, I just was paying off more important things to me right now, like my rent. It's a damn good thing she's not around right now.
Still trying to pay for our wedding, harder now since the tax return thing. Luckily none of my utilities are behind so they are small bills. Paying for everything a little at a time. Bought an ugly veil that looked nice in the store..returning it very soon. Favors are done, flowers are done. Got my dress, hopefully the bridesmaids get theirs. Need to pay pay pay pay. As of right now, there will be no DJ, photographer, alcohol (not that there was to be much to begin with), centerpieces, ring for Brian, tuxes, dress for Natalie, invitations, jewelry. NO MONEY!!!! Working on it, working on it, working on it. Gotta calm down.
Work is really starting to suck. I have no patience for 4 year olds. I was much better with school age kids. My schedule has been utterly shitty, the more I ask about not getting off at 8pm, the more I get stuck doing it (my coming schedule is much better, thank you!!!!!!). I don't like working until 8 because Natalie's bedtime is 9. We get home around 8:45 since I work all the way in Farmington Hills (I live in Westland) and since there's too much chaos here for her to take a nap, she sleeps all the way home! Then she gets her bottle and goes to bed?! This sucks! It's not good for her, it totally screws her up. Brian comes and gets her when he can but we can't afford that much gas for him to come here all the time. I'm not going to try and make her schedule change having her go to bed at 10 or later, she's the one who put herself on this schedule, it's worked for her since she was about 4 months old! My life doesn't revolve around my job, it revolves around Natalie. Need to find a job in the afternoons out in my area so that I can be home with her in the daytime, and go to work after Brian gets home.
CJ, lemme know about your car...been a hard week, haven't really talked to anyone on the phone. Whenever you need it back, please call me!
Time to go, need to buy baby wipes and baby toothpaste...and pay bills.. wah...hoo...
I'll try to update again soon... puter at home still messed up. James seems to be the only one who figured out what's wrong..something about IP addresses and the word 'stack' I think..maybe I just need a new 2005 ultra spiffy cufflink bog fruit cheeto chip card.
Later taters.
Pat, Carmen said you were going to call me about the pictures? Please feel free, just not right now, cuz i'm at the Y!