I cant sleep!
I hate how I feel! I hate the things I say! I hate the things I do! I just hate myself.
I really just wanted your friendship. You are great when you want to be. But the way you act and the things you say are somewhat understandable, but yet I don't understand. I don't know it it is true or a lie! I haven't gotten the opportunity to get to know you all too well. I do want that though.
Please don't hate me for the things I say or what I do. I know I shouldn't do them or say them but that is just how I feel at the time. I just can't help but think things might have been a mistake. I had fun and enjoyed your company but part of me thinks it was not a good idea. Part of me thinks negatively about it. Part of me thinks that is the reason your not talking to me much, calling me, getting together with me, etc. Please just tell me the truth. Let me know so I can feel better. You know you can tell me the truth. That is all I want is the truth...no matter what the truth might be; good or bad.
Well now if you would only read this it would make me feel even more better. But since I doubt you will I just wish for the time that I can actually tell you all of this. I need to get it off my chest.
I am going to try to sleep now.
I really just wanted your friendship. You are great when you want to be. But the way you act and the things you say are somewhat understandable, but yet I don't understand. I don't know it it is true or a lie! I haven't gotten the opportunity to get to know you all too well. I do want that though.
Please don't hate me for the things I say or what I do. I know I shouldn't do them or say them but that is just how I feel at the time. I just can't help but think things might have been a mistake. I had fun and enjoyed your company but part of me thinks it was not a good idea. Part of me thinks negatively about it. Part of me thinks that is the reason your not talking to me much, calling me, getting together with me, etc. Please just tell me the truth. Let me know so I can feel better. You know you can tell me the truth. That is all I want is the truth...no matter what the truth might be; good or bad.
Well now if you would only read this it would make me feel even more better. But since I doubt you will I just wish for the time that I can actually tell you all of this. I need to get it off my chest.
I am going to try to sleep now.