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Yesterday got my wisdom teeth pulled. They wound up doing both of them on the left side, upper and lower. It took forever for them to get me in there. They took *dun dun dun* X-rays and I cried a little because don't ask me why (since I don't know) but X-rays freak me the fuck out. Then I cried a lot once they brought me back to the room. I was crying the whole time until they sedated me LOL. I'm such a baby. I was *all* kindsa nervous. That place was freakin' ghetto, too. The people were really really nice, though. All their equipment looked as if it were from the 1960's. So once they finally got me drugged up, it only took them about half an hour to pull them. That IV shit is creeeeepy. You're like awake and can hear them kinda talking, but I was like hallucinating and shit. It was weird. Like, I had my eyes closed, but I could see their faces and they were all distorted and fucked up. Drugs are crazy. It seriously reminded me of being on acid. Sara was there to drive me home when I woke up. Yay for really good friends willing to take an afternoon out to drive my drugged up ass home and buy me a milkshake that I couldn't even drink lol. <3 Thanks again, Sara you rock. So, the dr. wrote me a note to be out of work until Friday but screw that. I'm going back tomorrow lol. That is, if I can talk right which I'm sure it won't be a problem by tomorrow. I got a Hog Butler's t-shirt and I'm way happy about it. It was free cuz I'm special. I tried to pay David for it, but he wouldn't take the money. I'm so messed up in the head, I just don't get it.
I don't want *anyone* commenting on this part of what I'm posting but I said I wouldn't hold back anything and I don't care what anyone thinks of me anyway. I just need to get this out k thanks.
start whoreness
I have the most wonderful man I've ever had. I have beautiful children. And yet, there's a point in every single relationship that I'm in where I feel the need for something different. Yes, I'm a lust whore. I meet someone that I'm *highly* attracted to (sexually) and all I want to do is fuck that person. Once would even be good enough, but it's the fact that I want it *SO* bad. It's SO fucking stupid. But I guess it just goes to show that the phrase "once a cheat always a cheat" is true. Especially with me. I dunno if it's the fact that I'm a Gemini, if it's something psychological or what. But it's stupid. Now, I'm not saying that I AM going to fuck that other person, that's not what I'm saying at all. It's just the fact that I want it so bad that bothers me. Because then there's always going to be that temptation. I wouldn't do that to Shaun because I've already done enough. OK, that's what I had to say.
Think what you want of me, I don't really care. But this is me and if you don't like it *shrugs* I could care less.
end whoreness
Ok, I need another Vicodin and then I may take a nap. Steph, call me later if you wanna come get yer stuff or whatever. <3
:)
I don't want *anyone* commenting on this part of what I'm posting but I said I wouldn't hold back anything and I don't care what anyone thinks of me anyway. I just need to get this out k thanks.
start whoreness
I have the most wonderful man I've ever had. I have beautiful children. And yet, there's a point in every single relationship that I'm in where I feel the need for something different. Yes, I'm a lust whore. I meet someone that I'm *highly* attracted to (sexually) and all I want to do is fuck that person. Once would even be good enough, but it's the fact that I want it *SO* bad. It's SO fucking stupid. But I guess it just goes to show that the phrase "once a cheat always a cheat" is true. Especially with me. I dunno if it's the fact that I'm a Gemini, if it's something psychological or what. But it's stupid. Now, I'm not saying that I AM going to fuck that other person, that's not what I'm saying at all. It's just the fact that I want it so bad that bothers me. Because then there's always going to be that temptation. I wouldn't do that to Shaun because I've already done enough. OK, that's what I had to say.
Think what you want of me, I don't really care. But this is me and if you don't like it *shrugs* I could care less.
end whoreness
Ok, I need another Vicodin and then I may take a nap. Steph, call me later if you wanna come get yer stuff or whatever. <3
:)