it was raining real hard ... quite scary...
sometimes i am scared to admit things. things that are good. and sometimes i'm scared to allow things to happen that are good. i guess this is the weird part of me. i just push things away at times. but all of it is just me being a pansy. i'm going to change myself. i'm going to gain more self-confidence. some may think i have it, that's just my mask. i'm a pretty good actres when i wanna be. i have changed some this past year or two, but this is the final transformation. i'm quite a happy kid myself, i'm just scared to be. because when you get too happy, bad things tend to happen and it all falls down.