What have I set myself up for Now!
Well, I have set myself up for heart break again. It has been a long time since I have felt quite this way about anyone, but I have not even met him face to face yet.
I was stupid enough to go on to one of those dating/match websites (a gift from a friend) and after 62 matches, half of whom closed the match on me, I found a guy who is the man I have been waiting for. Only, he seems so busy all the time, I am not sure how we are going to spend time together.
He lives in Kelso WA. and says he feels the same way about me that I feel about him. But, I have not really seen or felt any effort to really try to meet with me. I am confused and frustrated. I am not sure if he is afraid I won't like him, or if he won't like me. I keep thinking that if I just get him to meet me, then maybe he will want to make that effort to see me more often. I understand that he has 2 kids, but they are 14 and 15. Very capable of fending for themselves for one night a week so we can see each other, at least.
I am not sure how to stop my heart from getting carried away. I have not been in a relationship in at least 5 years, I have been single and alone. I have dated from time to time but never finding someone that is compatible. This man is soooooooo compatible I am hardly believing it. We talk at least 2 to 3 times a day, by instant message or by phone. He seems to love everything about me so far, and I have been completely honest with him about EVERYTHING in my life so far.
I just don't want to get all excited (too late) about this and then get hurt. I usually bounce back fine, but it has been a long time since I have let my guard down and let a man into my heart again. There is not one thing I can think of that I don't love about this man.
We are going to be meeting on Friday night for dinner, and whatever else may follow. I am so nervouse, I think I am going to go crazy. I am excited, and thrilled at the same time. I feel like a 16 year old with a crush.
Anyway, wish me luck. I really hope and think this may be the "one" but I dont' want to put all my eggs in a basket that still has a hole in it. Did that make any sense?
Until next time, God Bless you All
I was stupid enough to go on to one of those dating/match websites (a gift from a friend) and after 62 matches, half of whom closed the match on me, I found a guy who is the man I have been waiting for. Only, he seems so busy all the time, I am not sure how we are going to spend time together.
He lives in Kelso WA. and says he feels the same way about me that I feel about him. But, I have not really seen or felt any effort to really try to meet with me. I am confused and frustrated. I am not sure if he is afraid I won't like him, or if he won't like me. I keep thinking that if I just get him to meet me, then maybe he will want to make that effort to see me more often. I understand that he has 2 kids, but they are 14 and 15. Very capable of fending for themselves for one night a week so we can see each other, at least.
I am not sure how to stop my heart from getting carried away. I have not been in a relationship in at least 5 years, I have been single and alone. I have dated from time to time but never finding someone that is compatible. This man is soooooooo compatible I am hardly believing it. We talk at least 2 to 3 times a day, by instant message or by phone. He seems to love everything about me so far, and I have been completely honest with him about EVERYTHING in my life so far.
I just don't want to get all excited (too late) about this and then get hurt. I usually bounce back fine, but it has been a long time since I have let my guard down and let a man into my heart again. There is not one thing I can think of that I don't love about this man.
We are going to be meeting on Friday night for dinner, and whatever else may follow. I am so nervouse, I think I am going to go crazy. I am excited, and thrilled at the same time. I feel like a 16 year old with a crush.
Anyway, wish me luck. I really hope and think this may be the "one" but I dont' want to put all my eggs in a basket that still has a hole in it. Did that make any sense?
Until next time, God Bless you All