Cancer
I would just like to take this moment to say that god really must hate me right now... My grandmother has ovarian cancer and I feel completely helpless and small. I couldn't sleep, I've cried several times this morning for long amounts of time, and I want to curl up in a ball and die right now. There's nothing I can do for her, I know that. But I feel so horrible for everything I've ever said that was mean about her. There's no way I can reassure her that everything is going to be okay, because it's not. God hates my family. I stayed up all night just jotting stuff down when I calmed down a bit and wrote a few things I'm gonna use for english class.
Here's a taste of one I'm temporarily calling 'fade':
These lonely nights are getting to me
And all the while I keep wondering what could have been
I hear your voice slowly whispering
"Baby, the world's colorless without you here."
I swore that I loved you more
Than anyone before
But I'm never that sure
Misery, misery
Save me from this pain
Just keep me breathing
Misery, misery
Will you save my name?
Promise me you'll save my name
Here's a taste of one I'm temporarily calling 'fade':
These lonely nights are getting to me
And all the while I keep wondering what could have been
I hear your voice slowly whispering
"Baby, the world's colorless without you here."
I swore that I loved you more
Than anyone before
But I'm never that sure
Misery, misery
Save me from this pain
Just keep me breathing
Misery, misery
Will you save my name?
Promise me you'll save my name