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My feet started getting pins and needles around the beginning of July.
I went to the doctor's, and she thought maybe it was my new shoes, and I had squished my nerves. I was told to buy inserts for my shoes. If it didn't get any better to come back.
By the August it had moved up both legs.
At this point she decides to order xrays, and a ct scan.
The xrays come back normal, so we are waiting for the ct on Oct.2.
Sept. 30th, I do a night shift of inventory at work.
Oct.1 was fine, but when I woke up on the 2nd, I could not stand up. I went to see the doc who gave me some t3's, and muscle relaxers, and said she would track down my results the next morning.
She called the next day, said ct came back fine, but was concerned about all the pain I was in, and ordered an mri, and a spinal tap.
At this point i was feeling very torn. evryone told me to go to a chiro, then i would be fine. I really wanted to. but something was tugging in me......i knew that someting was wrong.
The mri was done on the 10th, and the spinal on the 12th.
On the 11th, the mri guy called and said I needed to come back on the 26th for another one. this time with dye.
doc calls the week of the 15th to say they found a shadow near D12 on my spinal column, and that my spinal had come back negative, but we were still waiting for some weird and crazy results.
by the 10th i was able to stand up straight, so life went on as usual for the next few weeks.
Oct.29., doctor office calls. Janice wants to see me on the 31st a noon.
I we a little anxious, but looking forward to finding out what was going on.
I went in to her office and sat down. She came in. sat down, asked me how I was doing, and told me there was a diagnosis. i can see tears well up in her eyes.
Multiple slcerosis.
my head started spinning.
she said that the shadow on my spine was a plaque. That's one of the areas where the myelin has started breaking down. my spinal and blood work all came back saying the same
thing.
i didn't really know what to say, or what to ask. she asked if he could give me a hug. told me that she had booked me in for 30 min, so there was no rush. but, i didn't know what to say.
she had already sent all my referrals to the ms clinic in vancouver. to expect a call.
i could sit in there. it all seemed to weird. so i left. Went to the van, called dave. had a 10 sec breakdown, then got my shit together. It was halloween. i didn't want to wreck it for the kids.
The ms clinic called that afternoon, and set up an appt. for nov.15.
i am going to start trying to write/type my journey....
i am doing okay for the most part. it al seems surreal, or like i am talking about someone else, but i am going to have to accept it. It isn't going away anytime soon, and it could always be worse.
i dont want sympothy. i dont want to be treated different.
i am sad that my children have yet another sick parent. that's the part that fucking sucks....but, we will be ok.
I went to the doctor's, and she thought maybe it was my new shoes, and I had squished my nerves. I was told to buy inserts for my shoes. If it didn't get any better to come back.
By the August it had moved up both legs.
At this point she decides to order xrays, and a ct scan.
The xrays come back normal, so we are waiting for the ct on Oct.2.
Sept. 30th, I do a night shift of inventory at work.
Oct.1 was fine, but when I woke up on the 2nd, I could not stand up. I went to see the doc who gave me some t3's, and muscle relaxers, and said she would track down my results the next morning.
She called the next day, said ct came back fine, but was concerned about all the pain I was in, and ordered an mri, and a spinal tap.
At this point i was feeling very torn. evryone told me to go to a chiro, then i would be fine. I really wanted to. but something was tugging in me......i knew that someting was wrong.
The mri was done on the 10th, and the spinal on the 12th.
On the 11th, the mri guy called and said I needed to come back on the 26th for another one. this time with dye.
doc calls the week of the 15th to say they found a shadow near D12 on my spinal column, and that my spinal had come back negative, but we were still waiting for some weird and crazy results.
by the 10th i was able to stand up straight, so life went on as usual for the next few weeks.
Oct.29., doctor office calls. Janice wants to see me on the 31st a noon.
I we a little anxious, but looking forward to finding out what was going on.
I went in to her office and sat down. She came in. sat down, asked me how I was doing, and told me there was a diagnosis. i can see tears well up in her eyes.
Multiple slcerosis.
my head started spinning.
she said that the shadow on my spine was a plaque. That's one of the areas where the myelin has started breaking down. my spinal and blood work all came back saying the same
thing.
i didn't really know what to say, or what to ask. she asked if he could give me a hug. told me that she had booked me in for 30 min, so there was no rush. but, i didn't know what to say.
she had already sent all my referrals to the ms clinic in vancouver. to expect a call.
i could sit in there. it all seemed to weird. so i left. Went to the van, called dave. had a 10 sec breakdown, then got my shit together. It was halloween. i didn't want to wreck it for the kids.
The ms clinic called that afternoon, and set up an appt. for nov.15.
i am going to start trying to write/type my journey....
i am doing okay for the most part. it al seems surreal, or like i am talking about someone else, but i am going to have to accept it. It isn't going away anytime soon, and it could always be worse.
i dont want sympothy. i dont want to be treated different.
i am sad that my children have yet another sick parent. that's the part that fucking sucks....but, we will be ok.