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i got fired from my job today.
i feel like a worthless piece of shit.. i was a good worker.
Now i have a horse who i took on resposibility and got a job so i could pay for all the needs of my animal, and all i have now is the money i have in the bank...
Its so hard to get a job, i was lucky to have one.. i fucked up and clocked me and kayla in and left to go pick her up.. i was gone about 10 mins max.. got caught.. got fucked. and now i feel fucked.
kaylas mom is so pissed at her, i feel so bnad for her, she is still 17 so its going to be harder for her to find a job. or even find a job that only lets you work weekends which is all she can work
same here, i can only work mondays, wensdays and weekends and my job was going to work around that... everything was set for school to start and for how much anxiety and stress i had over school starting, look at what gets added to it a week before school starts... now i have no job... i feel like a loser... I want to die.. this world has nothing left to offer.. all the beautiful sights are being ruined by all the stuff us humans are going to the planet.. i see more sin and hate then love.
All thats left now is to get a degree, start a job, start a family, get old and die.
doesnt sound to fun to me.
I see so much diease in the world. like mike tells me about people down in msu who have stds and sleep with about 2 people a night.. its spreads and im so afraid to get a diease. i watch my mom live with a diease everyday of her life and people dont understand how things like that RUIN your life.. i dont ever want to be in the position my mother is in and im so afraid to beacuse i feel like so many times i ignore her when she needs help or dont take the time to sit down and talk to her.. and i feel like its going to come back on me and later in life im going to get karma smacked right in my face... i dont want that to be me...
i dont want to suffer ..I dont want to live.
i feel like a worthless piece of shit.. i was a good worker.
Now i have a horse who i took on resposibility and got a job so i could pay for all the needs of my animal, and all i have now is the money i have in the bank...
Its so hard to get a job, i was lucky to have one.. i fucked up and clocked me and kayla in and left to go pick her up.. i was gone about 10 mins max.. got caught.. got fucked. and now i feel fucked.
kaylas mom is so pissed at her, i feel so bnad for her, she is still 17 so its going to be harder for her to find a job. or even find a job that only lets you work weekends which is all she can work
same here, i can only work mondays, wensdays and weekends and my job was going to work around that... everything was set for school to start and for how much anxiety and stress i had over school starting, look at what gets added to it a week before school starts... now i have no job... i feel like a loser... I want to die.. this world has nothing left to offer.. all the beautiful sights are being ruined by all the stuff us humans are going to the planet.. i see more sin and hate then love.
All thats left now is to get a degree, start a job, start a family, get old and die.
doesnt sound to fun to me.
I see so much diease in the world. like mike tells me about people down in msu who have stds and sleep with about 2 people a night.. its spreads and im so afraid to get a diease. i watch my mom live with a diease everyday of her life and people dont understand how things like that RUIN your life.. i dont ever want to be in the position my mother is in and im so afraid to beacuse i feel like so many times i ignore her when she needs help or dont take the time to sit down and talk to her.. and i feel like its going to come back on me and later in life im going to get karma smacked right in my face... i dont want that to be me...
i dont want to suffer ..I dont want to live.