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ok so lately ive bin feeling like shit. dont ask me why, cuz i dont know. well, i mean i do noe y, but its too much to explain. so many fake people. like, its just to much to bear sometimes. too much to handle. i just got thru talking to adria, and she really made me feel better. like i was talking to her about how i feel so suffocated being here, and how i feel like i need to get out somewhere, and u know wats great about her, its the fact that she noes how to listen. and when you're done blabbing to her about how shitty ur life is, she always noes the best things to say. awesome shit man. we sat in the casco hallway and talked about my shit, and johhny depp, and her new shoes. they're really cute actually. i am so fuckin irritated. omg. yesterday was such a...lets say different type of day. claire fell in the mud yesterday and broke her wrist in two places. i feel really bad cuz it was on the way to the bus for bowling, and she slipped on her way running to me. i partially feel like it was my fault, but then again i dont cuz im not the one who pushed her. then ted broke up with carolyn yesterday which i just cant believe. they were not supposed to break up you know? its like one of those type of relationships that you looked up to and you just didnt expect to see end. it came so suddenly without any warning. then today i kicked it wit yaa and caitlin. we looked for winter formal dresses, but i didnt really like the ones that i saw. i feel so fuckin fat. its sickening. but o well. then while we were on our way back, me and caitlin got off at monterey and let yaa go back to school and finish her hw. me and caitlin went to lunablu, a tite vintage store. i got me a really slutty shirt to wear to the can tonite (which im not evn going to ne more). then we went looking for her uncle, and... o yea! we went and got our tarot fortune read. it was so much fun. the lady was supposed to charge us 35 dollars each, but instead she let us ask 1 question each for only 12 dollars total! she was really nice. i asked her about b. and if we were going to get together,and my fortune said that he is in between asking to girls rite now. me and im gessing n. but it said that he is pushing towards me and that he wants to go with me, and for me to keep giving him reason to, and to keep working for it and that we will eventually be together. caitlin kept yelling at me telling me that she tried to tell me that in the first place. but o well. i feel better now i ges...i feel like i should go rite now. so i ges i will. ttyl